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Suddenly Blogging Day

2012-01-10T20:54:00.002+08:00

Well, Something happen and it leads me to blogging again. I had been a years that blog have been away from my life and it did come back again to me now. A lot of happening around me and it lead me to started to change my own directions.

I had been fade up with my current work. Feel wanna resigning from this firm now. I really wish to resign when my boss announce the increment to me last week. I even cried out as I heard what my boss told to me. That time I was think of resigning, not more than that. I just feel the increment is really so, I rather remains my salary now. It just like feeding me like a begger. And talk those 'hard heard' words to me as keep saying me work in a slow motion but in fact, I was doing 3 departments work. I really fade up with my boss. Even now, I dont really wanna talk to her anymore.

I was thinking, no matter how much effort I put, how much time I spend to work, I will never get rewards from there. I promise to myself, I will never put too much effort on work again starts from that moment. I will come on time and leave on time. One years, it had been a long year for me to pass through. But never mine, I will try my best to be patient, to wait the time come.

I was wondering, if 2 years ago, I did not enter this firm, what could happens to me? Will me be survive in BIG FOUR companies? Do my salary increment is slightly better than now? Or will my health condition better than now? These few question was playing around my mind all these while. I'm just stepped a wrong leg to a wrong firm. Wasted my 2 years time. I just wanna say, once I decided, nobody will change my mind anymore.

Lately, I meet a nice guy. Well, I went to a Salon to cut my hair as CNY is around. I named him Mr ALKW. Hm.. First time ever, I meet a guy who talks a lot when doing hair cut. I was shock when he told me that he read a lot of psychology books. At that moment, I was thinking, Hm... This guy not bad. He really talks a lot until he told me that he works two job in his life. I was shock when he said so. And yet, he did a nice hair style for me, at lease it makes me look matured, and not childish anymore. And he did ask me a question before I leave the salon. He ask me, can I call you??? And I answered, Yes, you may call me anytime. I was thinking that, more a friend is better more an enemy. But he too pleasant until I also too pleasant to him also.

Saturday, when I received his call, I was surprise for it. Well, he ask me out for a drinks. Unfortunely, I'm going for wedding dinner that night. Hence, I cant make it anyway. I taught he will not call me out again. And yet, Sunday night, he called me again. And this time, we meet at a cafe nearby my house. We had a medium long conversation there and I did sign up for a saving plan for a better future.

After the conversation, I found out that he not bad. (maybe this was a first meeting, so it couldn't see through much of it) At lease he be honest. He told me his past and I can feel he really talking the truth. Maybe I'm too naive to believing people. He told me don't get to trust people easily. But I guess, he wont cheat me anyway. The next day, I pass the sum of insurance fees to him, and suddenly he told me something makes me dont know how to react for it. He said "I'm happy to see you again' LOL. Such a funny phrase. And Later on, he shows his tatoo me to and said "this a previous me" and he told me dont judge ppl by its appearance. And I told him, I wont. (Dear blog reader, I guess, You know that MR ALKW previously is what guy right???)

Well, just a nice friend to be with. I'm feel comfortable when chatting with him. But this meeting he makes me realize something. Money is important in our life. Without money, nothing could be done. My target now is... MONEY !!! MONEY !!!! MONEY !!!! $$$$$

11.11.11

2011-11-11T21:25:00.002+08:00

Whats the special of 11.11.11?????

Hm... It special for someone and just a normal day for someone.

For me, it just a normal day, nothing special at all...

Just feel tiring, and lazy to blogging...

Well, just drop by and wrote some here.

At lease, i did something special today, wrote a blog.

What I'm Demanding For????

2011-10-25T22:16:00.004+08:00

Headlines Of the post are clear enough for describing my moods now. What I'm demanding for now??? Demanding for a better life??? For a better environment??? For A better future??? For Ending up a single life??? Or For Anything????

I'm kinda moody these few days. I cant exactly know whats really ruining up my mood and mind. Suddenly pop-ed up that Mr V in my mind. It just clear in my mind. Keep repeating how he treat me and the beginning and throw me at the end. I'm hurt that time. But, I cant blame no one. Its my choice to be with him at the first time. I just need to swallow all the things alone.

Rumor around spreading that my God Brother, I named it Mr D was interested to me. In fact, I'm not really know whats my mind towards him. I just confusing. I cant determined it, really cant. Be frank here, Mr D is really a good guy. Whenever I'm in trouble, he will be there for me. I believe that he really will treasure me like his own sister. But in fact, he did so. Not much ppl will do so. Just like my car incident last few week. He really better than my real brother. I guess, our relation remain as bro and sister will be better for us.

Trouble-ing with my studies and stuck in the middle of it. I'm started to have a bit regret of taking the professional papers. Its really hard. Its not as easy as i taught. Need alot of effort and hardworking towards it. Needs alot of time to understand it and needs a lot of patients and effort for it. I'm starting to feel tired now.

Another problem arise, the money problem. I found that my salary not enough to cover up my expenses. I'm started to demand a lot of things. I feel that I'm Changes. Changed alot. I cant really know whats I need now.

I just wanna shed my tears out. I guess i will be more comfortable once i shed-ed it out. My tears seems like to tougher than me. Refusing to come out. Thats enough, at lease something is protecting me from being week.

I wish I was tough as turtle... Never being afraid of everything, protected by a hard shield.

Turtle will surrender but never quits until the end. I wish I could be like them.. But I'm know, I cant do it... Really Can't....

Back From Melaka

2011-08-31T22:56:00.004+08:00

Melaka !!! Here I come again on 28th of August 2011. Our journey started here. 27th August, we went to Gemencheh, One of Our Friends house, xiao yang and we overnight there. The whole night, I'm being bored there as they gambling and I'm not interested in gamble at all. But i get to know how to play 3 ppl mahjong and recalling back my knowledge. The whole night, is consider as my boring night, and my 3G cant connected. Oh gosh !!! Wat a terrible moment, no 3G, end of my life. Luckily, my 3G is back and able to online. Thanks for my online buddy, Kyo who accompany me fring-ing and SMS the whole night.

The next day, we heading to Melaka. From Gemencheh to Melaka only need around 1 hours time. And we reach Melaka quite early, around 1pm. And we check in to our hotel. Two seperate hotel, Holiday Inn and Fenix Inn Hotel. We went for shopping and walking around the Melaka. Shop at Dataran Pahlawan and Get to buy nothing. Eaten Sushi as our dinner, and went back hotel and prepare to clubbing at Arena (beside the holiday Inn Hotel)

Something funny happen during the clubbing session. Seven of us, nicole, katherine, kaka, Bin, xiao yang, chew yee and me, some one of them are totally drunk. Guess who?? Yes, is he. Kaka. Hahahaha. In this clubbing session, i get a brother. Kaka suddenly become my Brother (kor kor). LOL. Too sudden to have a bro (although i have more than that) But not a bad things, kaka could be a good brother to me. Unfortunely, he going to work in Vietnam soon. Hope he doing well there.

Well, he really drunk until the next day bluring around. We went to Zoo Melaka, and he keep vomiting and I'm no dare to talk with him aso. Scared he will scold me up as nicole told me all his bad habit to me. kinda scary. And this makes me not dare to come over him again. we went for satay celup at night without him. And the satay celup success makes me 'lao sai'. >< Thats end of 2nd day.

Third day, we went back to KL. And my kaka kor kor finally awake. Some weird feeling occur in my heart. Maybe i think too much. I feel that he like very shy like dat. Dunno y. Just have a weird feel like that. Hm.. I think too much I think. I did ask his phone number anyway. And he surprise that i dun have his contact number. No means No. What to surprise of. ><

And they fetch me back home first before they back to Broga, They stay outside my house they manage to taste my house mango which called Dragon Mango. Haha. They Surprise to see it as they didnt see this type of mango before. Kaka kor kor finally talk something funny and lead me laugh. Nicole introduce my beloved doggy 'kaka girl' to kaka kor kor know. LOL. Sound funny right? Den kaka kor kor ask my doggy, u same name with me i can 'pikat' u or not. LOL. I was laughing like hell that time. Something more funny, I call kaka kor kor like calling my doggy and he 'merajuk' dat time. LOL. Suddenly i feel like my kor kor like my di di more. Hahahaha. Here some photo of us. (summary of the photo.

Thats end of our journey

~ The End ~

All the Crow is Black?

2011-08-13T23:30:00.004+08:00

Well, All the Crow is Black is referring to??? In my point of this, in this piece of blog, is referring to all the guy. Is it all the guy are same all the time??? Sweet mouth and cared for you before get along, and dump you up when they bored of you. Its kinda a fade up action for me.

In my point of view at this moment, there is none of the guy can be trusted. I'm not sure whether is my problem or im being the unlucky one. Once I'm put all my effort and trustworthy to that particular guy, it will be suffering me at the end. We not ending up with a good ending. And this lead to me, to had a bad impression towards all the guy.

I'm dislike those guy who loves to talk lies to me. Childhood phobia surrounded me all these while. From that moment, I'm started not to trust anyone as I taught everyone cant be trusted. End up with my life so, lost the trust to everyone.

Just ending up with current relation, and I did say that I'm not going to jump into those relation again to avoid from hurting. For me, friends is better than couple. I don't wish to find any of my friends circles, to become my couple again. Never and Ever ~~

Heart Broken??? Sadness??? Yes, it did. But not really. Just feel that been cheated and perfidy. Nothing much. Its really lucky that it was a beginning, not as deep as the sea. Its easy to rub it off i guess. I wish I could forget it forever, but its impossible i knew.

I believe that time could 'scrap' off all the unwanted memories... Nothing could be do anyway. Just wait and see. That path of life. Phew ~~ Time to rest ~~

You Bright Up My Mood Today

2011-07-28T21:45:00.002+08:00

Whose Bright Up My Life???
Well, My life been busy since the Month of March 2011 until now July 2011. Keep on Doing Tax, Tax and Tax... my life just like, working, eat, working, sleep. LOL. Thats my life.

March - FORM E
April - FORM BE
May/June - FORM B
July - FORM C & R

I can conclude that being as a tax assistant is not easy at all. The title and post are assistant, but the work is just like a tax executive. Handling the tax alone and nobody would help u out and nobody will guide u anything. Everything you learn yourself by referring to last year work. I still remember, FORM E, I had did wrong FORM EA for customer. At the end, been scold like a 'shit'. FORM BE, me and my senior work till 9pm everyday. Imagine, work 10 hours +++ everyday, not much ppl can hang on for it. That time i felt like i wanna die soon. Work from Mon to Sun and Sat i got class sumore. OMG !!! I dont even have time to rest at all...

I have a bad mood today. Works overload and I cant even finish at all. Too much and too many works to carry on ~~~ Imagine, I'm alone need to submit around 40 companies Form C & R for the whole day and nobody wanna help me out. My senior did help me anyway, but she need to carry on its dateline document too. Therefore, I cant doing all the things.

Miracle appear, I'm finally believe in miracle. Mr Secret comes and help me out. Well, Mr Secret appear again in my blog. (I guess, if u following my blog all these while, u should know who is 'Mr Secret anyway.) Today, he did something make me have a good feels towards him. He volunteer to help me out doing the FORM C & R with the guidance from me. Well, I just surprise he will help me out. I taught he will let me do alone just watch what I had did it. Hm.. I just simpily say for fun 'U help me do' lo... Den he said. OK. Demonstrate for me how you did it. LOL. Such a nice guy. Wondered why my ex-colleague keep telling me he not good at all. I felt he quite OK ma. At lease he willing to help out when needs help. Now left around 8 Forms there... Happy to see it =)

Although he doing it secretly for me as he was our associate audit firm staff but he really dare to do. Hahahaha. Once his boss coming over, i will try to help him out too. Just like informing him that boss coming, assist him doing audit procedure and so on.

Hm... Peak is going End ~~ I'm free from next week onwards. Its time for me to concentrate on my studies. Don't think anything further than that. Just like my colleague ask me just now. Why that I'm not going to 'dating'? And I answered, I dont have time. Tiring. But being in relationship its really tired. I wanna rest for a while time. Single for a period and think what should I do and What I really demand for. I'm tiring of it anyway.

My Coming month, is my study month... Keep on studying, thats my life =)

Ok. Thats all my sharing...

A sincerely wish from me.
Thank you 'Mr Secret' (TYH)
I'm really appreciate your help
I know that you wont read this, i will wrote it.
From today onwards, i will change my point of view towards you.
~~~ Its true ~~~

Thats all.. Nite World =)

Continue or Stop???

2011-06-27T21:43:00.002+08:00

What Should I say About it??? Should I Continue or Should I Stop and Get off from this situation???

Well, wondered what I'm talking about???

Lets share something with my reader.

My 'friend' who been trouble with her love life as this situation mades her life miserable. Two weeks ago, she had done something that I never expected she will do so. As first, I can't believe that she will did it and he had did it anyway. She 'expressed' to a guy which she know for a long time and contact closely lately. She told me, she just wants the guy know what she LOVE HIM. And the guy refuse to accept her at the beginning coz he said he might not have much time to start a relationship lately as he going to further study later. So, my friend told him too as she going to start class too. So, both of them agree and trying to start a new relationship but with one terms and agreement. Never and Ever told anyone regarding our relationship. What a stupid rules anyway.

They went for a movie on Friday night. A midnight movie ~~~ And they started their first date that day. So do the following day, they went out again, and sudden the guy say to her, I had a weird feeling, we just like friends. OMG!!! She was shocked when heard this. What this means actually??? Is it a break up Oath??? I have no idea how to answering my friend anyway.

Start from that moment, the guy had seldom contacted my friend, even a simple SMS there is no from her. And last week he finally went out and see my friend, and he told my friend that he very busy lately so cant sms her. And my friend seem like not really understanding him. I told her, this is mature love life but she seem like cant used for it. She wondered whether she should stay on or letting it go???

Two weeks, it had been a life like so. I'm trying to persuade her for not too easily let go, but she seem to wanna quit this game as she told me is not suitable for her to go into it.

And due to this situation, something come across my mind.

Firstly, why must keep it secretly?? Never and ever told anyone regarding their relationship. Its not a shameful matter, why it needs to keep secretly???

Secondly, busy is not a reason to not SMS your partner. Just a simple sms will represent a care and respect to each other. At lease one sms for every two day. But it seem like no sms and no news from him. Just like disappear to no where else.

I just think, is it every guy will do so??? I'm afraid in relationship due to this situation. Insecure feeling will occur to me. I hate people who lies to me, never told me the real situation and let me keep thinking, and thinking of it.

~~Haih~~

Guy, always did something that we cant expected. I can't read their minds as they are too complicated 'animal' to be understander. Its proven in my past 2 relationship.

Anyhow, Good Luck to My friend,

Advise from me, let it go whenever you feel u cant hang it anymore.

As a words say by, a balloon will burst when we pump too much air to it. Neither of human, once you cant handle it anymore, should letting it go, not taking it on.

Be wisely when made a decision.

That's Advise from me

Another Gathering !!

2011-06-13T21:09:00.003+08:00

Nothing Much Could Be Write In This Post. I Dunno where Should I start from and How to starts to write this blog. Hm... My memory recorded, everything happens when we get along the the birthday celebration day.

On 21 May 2011, A memorable and unforgettable night for me. Can be said, a sweet dream started and can be said a nightmare started. I cant differentiate whether is a good beginning or a great ending. Its sound interesting right??? Well, just follow up and you try to be in my situation as well.

The story Started. We plan to have a birthday celebration for our UOG classmate, Mr C1 and Mr C2. At first, we only plan for celebration Mr C1 and not for Mr C2. A sudden decision made by our organiser as we know that Mr C2 birthday was on 23rd May. So we plan to celebrating their birthday together. Before the day of celebration, me and Mr C2 had personally went out yam cha. (dun think wrongly, just a normal yam cha session). Well, he told me that he got a wedding dinner that day, and he will come around 11 something if he manage to come on. So I told the organiser and we just plan for it. We enjoying eating at KL and later on to Kuchai Lama. While in Kuchai Lama, some of them were complaining that the organiser was not organise the gathering properly. And Mr C1 keep saying he very tired. And he keep complaining that why we all need to wait for Mr C2 without any reason, in fact he did not know that we going to celebrate his birthday together too. I guess he too bored, and yet, I had borrowed my phone to him and he used to play the angry birds. LOL. Yeah, Angry Birds Again ~~~

We keep chit chatting while waiting for Mr C2 arrive. Our Organiser keep calling Mr C2 and Mr C2 finally arrive on 12 something. We just eat the cake and in a fast speed, we went off from the cafe as Mr C1 keep complaining that he very very tired. I just felt that we like boycotting Mr C2, its a weird feeling anyway. On and Off, we just took 30 minutes to clear off everything. And Everyone just ran from there. I just felt that, do we need to care how's everyone feels??? Hm... I guess not. I'm a normal human, not really can care all in a shot time. As predicted, something happend later. I drive back my car and back on time. Before back I went back, Mr C2 was talking something that makes me miserable. LOL. Dont think too much, just a warm greetings, Careful driving... LOL

I reach home around 1 something in the morning, and sudden, my phone rang for the First time. Well, I taught nothing at the beginning. But, something happend later. I received a call from one of them (I means the photo below) and that person told me, is it u involve in this suprising party???? Then I Say "YES" and that fellow hang up my phone. The fellow told me, a phrase and scared me. "I'm not surprising at all, you guys refresh me back to past". Oh Gosh!! I'm worried, and quickly phone back ~~~And dat fellow told everything to me and I was pity for it to have such a bad and sadness memory. And I dunno how to response for it. You know, me kinda of cant persuade other.... well, thats consider as a nightmare for me. I dont know how to response a person at that moment. Haih ~~~

Here the Photo... Spot Who is Mr C1 and Mr C2 ya ~~~~

Ok. Its time to off ~~~ Lets my Grumble become Nothing ~~~ Nite ~~~

Updates !!!

2011-05-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

It Had been a Long Long Long Long Time that I didnt update my blogs... I think is around 4 months I think. As I remember, the last post that Post here is around February. Hm... Not A Short period... In this 4 months, happenings alot in my life. As usual, I'm still here. And many things had go and come. Hm... hardly to predict what will happen the next. Something could be shared here. My office had been earthquake as suddenly two of my colleague throw a resign letter together. And both of them are really important in office. On that moment, I'm sudden feel that the world had gone. They seem like bored with this job and wanna get off as soon as possible. I did try to ask them why resign, and they told me they cant stand on with the stress of rushing account and tax every year. So they choose to leave and find a stable and not as stress as this kind of job. I was wondered, is it that stress??? I just step on my leg in this field for 1 year. And I didnt feel anything. Until the month of April. I realise what is the stress that they mention to me before they resign. For u guys information, in the month of April, I had been working almost 12 hours a day. Almost everyday I worked from 8.30am to 8.30pm at night... I'm finally feel the stress that they told me. I still remember, the life of that particular month, My life just work, eat and sleep. Repeated everyday ~~~ Its tiring. I dont even have anytime to study my books. Once open the books, and my eyes closed. As result, I Only get 31 Marks in my Mock Exam on 30th April. And I had make my lecturer disappointed. I'm sorry Mr Ang, I'm not purposely want to get this result. But, I really dont have time to open up the books and study. And the question is really tough. I know that tough question is not a excuses, but for me, tough question is because im not doing enough preparation. Thats y I felt the question hard. Anyhow, sorry Mr Ang. I had break our promise which aim to get a higher marks than the previous exam marks. I think for me, its hardly to see the sun come out from west although using various method to make me believe it ~~~ ( I Guess He Wont see this anyway)

The Month Of April. Actually is the Birthday Month. And I had did some celebrations with my close friends and family. Here some photo to be shared :

Jogoya, The Japanese Style Buffet ~~~ On 8th April to celebrate Chee Yen Birthday. Thanks for the early wishes from u guys although they wrong say my birthday... Hahahha. But quite an enjoyable moment there.

Another celebration on actual day, 10th April with Wallances, Ah lai and Sharon. Thanks for the Sing K session @ CEO Karaoke. I love it anyway. =)

Thanks For the Gift ~~~ The Huge Large Calculator. I love it anyway. =)

I'm officially 23 years old this year. Well, its time for me to planning my future. What Should i go for??? Hm... Quite a Long Journey, And I dont wish to think much on it. Just face the problem right now and future settle later on. And I think its time for me to bed now ~~~ I had been sleep for few hours in 2 days. I guess Friday night could be a best sleeping night for me today. Ok.

~~~ Nitez World ~~~

New Chair @ Office

2011-03-09T21:54:00.002+08:00

9 March 2011.

15 new chair arrive at our office. We never taught that the new chair are available for us too. I taught it only for the executive level staff. Happy For getting a new chair. Well, i felt that the new black chair are quite light. I scared i will 'turn turtle' again at office. (meaning fall down from the chair due to unable to stabilize myself). Hm... a lot of things happen today. Finally I did it. Its really finally. My 'bu on gei bei xun' (cantonese) no increase at all when he come near to me. I'm started to turn normal now. Wont afraid and fear for it. He teach me how to use excel in Microsoft Word 2007. Such a nice learning session. At lease learn something that day. Hm... He is a good bro I guess. Well, i treat him like my own bro too. Trying to help him out when he needs me, just what i did to my real brother. Hehe. I went to facial treatment again today. To Save my face, that a only solutions

10 March 2011

Memorable and fantastic day today. One of my colleague was successfully resigned from our company. She finally did it. When the time, she entered our boss meeting room for meeting, I really scared she will 'xin ruan' and nt resigning at the end. She finally did it. I'm proud of her also anyway. These few day i realize something when they keep talking about changing job requirement. Age increased, the chance to be employed will be lesser and lesser. And this made to me a make a new resolutions for this year. I plan up to pass all the ACCA paper in 3 years time. 3 year time I hope I can do it. This coming semester, i will take up paper F7 and pass it. I need to review paper F5 syllabus. If not much changes, I might choose to self study, I means not attending the class. This will faster up the speed of taking ACCA. I need fast now. The resignation of my colleague not really a bad news. My boss said she will give me touch company tax. Its finally, I can touch it. But I really 'ng seh tak' her leaving here. I guess i will be crying at the day she left. She teach me a lot of things. I learn alot from her. She really a good senior. I will be missing her. Argh... Worry what, she live so near with me... i go find her yam cha aso can la... hahahaha... Ok. Its time for sleeping now... Nite Worlds ~~~~

Happening In February

2011-03-02T20:52:00.013+08:00

February, the month of outing. Happening in February too much and too rush. Almost everyday we took picture and held some event everywhere including wedding dinner, birthday party and reunion dinner.

Some photo uploaded to shows the happening around the Month of February

The Blue Day @ Office. 10 February 2011. The first day all of my colleague wearing the same colour of shirt ~~~ Yes, is blue colour ~~~ There are 5 different blue colour shirt. Which Blue nicer??? For me, 5 blue have thier own unique.... I love it ~~~ Sudden Fall in love to blue color. Because of Him??? Absolutely Not ~~~ XD

11 February 2011. The Black Uniform Day ~~~~ Blackie Accounts Department ~~~ Hahahahaha. Reunion Lunch was held that day as our boss bring some meat and 'kuih' for us to eat ~~~

14 February 2011 ~~~ Valentine Day ~~~~ To celebrating the Valentine Day, we wore pink colour shirt as the celebrations. See all the pinkies here... Do we cute and pretty??? hehehe ~~~

18 February 2011. My Sister 18th Birthday which I brought a Tiramisu Cake For her as her birthday present. Well, after celebration at my house, I was rushing to my diploma and degree friend open house @ Ampang. First time ever, I drove to Ampang and I'm totally road blink there. Its too complicated ~~~ Too many junction and traffic light to pass. Cant recognised at all. But I Guess, I wont go much there. So No need to recognised too much.

19 February 2011. Our colleague, Stacia Wedding Dinner @ Passion Road Cafe, KLCC. Too many things happen on the dinner time. I felt that I'm look like a weird person as I make-up and makes my face look brighter. Its like semi-ghost. LOL. But quite experienced dinner.

Another event held on 19 February 2011. Our Colleagues Birthday, Mei Thin. Happy Birthday !!!! We celebrated her birthday after Stacia Wedding Dinner. Drich Cafe is a suitable place to 'yam cha'. I love to there alot. Can listen to those oldiest and romantic songs. Food and beverages OK. And I love the environment... Not too cold and not too warm ~~~

Due to outing too often and too much ~~~ I had fall sick on monday. LOL. Sick almost a week only recover to normal. Problem occur in my throat. My throat swallow and I'm not care of it. And it lead to the sickness that I having last week. Frankly, my throat still a bit pain right now ~~~ I'm trying to not eating those fried things (but this afternoon I ate a fried chicken. ><) Well, flu and throat illness still bothering me. Hm... Imagine how long it can last long in my body. I means the virus. Faster away from me !!!! Quickly !!!! Ok. The month of March Started. And my busy life started too. Saturday will be my tougher day for me. 9am start working and 1pm study till 8pm. Wish me luck. Hopefully I manage to survive in this few month. (I means my body anyway, u know, I'm just like a soft 'tauhu', always sick without any notice) Hm... Its time to do my homework, TAXATION ~~~ Which the papers I'm currently take now. Ok. Time to off now ~~~~

Good Luck !!!

2011-02-17T20:41:00.002+08:00

Well, Good Luck Everyone !!!
Today was the 15th day of CNY and it known as Chinese Valentine Day
There are some traditional activities could be held today
Such as, the most loveable activities that could be done by single boys and girls
This traditional tradition could make up a pair of couple in future
The tradition will be as following:
Girls will thrown the mandarin oranges into a pond meanwhile the boys will pick up the oranges from the pond
In opposite way, the boy could throw a banana into a pond and it can be picked by by the girls too.
By doing this way, it represent a true and fair for both parties.
It depends to fate anyway, not really everyone could end with a happy ending =)
You guys should be try it if you are interested.

As mentioned in previous post, I met a group of friend from Serdang & Balakong, one of them are jobless, not really jobless but working for his dad. Not consider jobless actually. And he finally found a job that he likes. I'm happy for him that he could work the job that he likes. And he's start working yesterday. Hopes everything goes well and hopefully he really can pass the hard time he had... which he work 2 job in a day ~~~ Although I knew that you wouldn't see myblog and my post, but a sincerely, warm wishes from me ~~~ Good Luck !!! I will always there for you if you need me to be your listener to listen for your grumble. =)

Valentine Day

2011-02-15T01:00:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentine Everyone !!!

Yes, its me, I'm back to blogging again. Hm... I had stopped blog for one month. Missing blogger actually =)

Hm... One Month time, Its happen alot to me. Met a bunch of new friends, Learn lesson from incident, Learn a new road and new way, learn how to take care of my skin, and more. Can be said, a month time for learning. Let me briefly explain my learning process in one month time.

Met a bunch of new friends - Met one of my online friend, and later meet another 4 person. I'm glad to have a friend like u guys. Although they are from Serdang and Balakong, they worth to be a friends. I'm pretty sure, they will here for me if I'm needed their help. Thanks for everything =)

Learn a lesson from incident - Never trust a sweet words from a just met friends. I'm wondered whether some of the guy had eat too much sweets and this lead to a lot of sweet words come out from their mouth.

Learn a new road and new way - Get to know the road to Serdang and KL actually. Well, I used to sleep while my brother driving, thats whats makes me become a road 'crazy'. I'm believe that u needs to drive to that particular place only can recognised that particular road.

Learn to take care of my skin - I'm currently doing hard to repair my face skin as my face skin is damaging soon. I'm forcing my self to put on toner, serum and moisturizer after having a cleanser.... To become pretty, must hardworking for it =)

Summary of my learning process, must determine your vision or mision, then you only can achieved it =)

Back to the main topic, Valentine Day. Nothing Special For me. 2 years Valentine Celebrating Alone. But this year quite special. I had went to one of my friend house and Steamboat there. Quite enjoyable moment.

I still remember what I told my friend yesterday who come to my house and ask me whether I can fetch him to one place for interview. I just promised him and fetched him to there. And he sudden ask for my chinese name, and I told him, and he told me, this name is really suitable for me as my characteristic is just like my name. LOL. What A Funny Answer I get from him. =)

Recalling back 2 days ago, I had went to Thean Hou Temple and I had pray from 'yan yun' (cantonese). First time ever I did it in my life. Learn alot of things from there. And I had "kau Chim' (Cantonese) from there too. And it exactly 'Zhun' like dunno how to explain it. It really described my characteristic. It asked me to "forget the pass, dont always remember it". Yes, I did keep remembering it and its lead me to hardly get involve in another relationship. Whenever I wants to accept a guy in my life, I will have a prevention, just like a wall preventing me to get close with them. Once they treated me good abit, I will start to think alot of things. Just what my colleague told me just now, due to your pass experience, it leads you to think so. But what they said are true. From what I see, my family, some of my colleague married life, and my pass ex-relationship, it will lead a deep taught for me. How Could I Forget it???? Its hard !!!

I can't do it. I'm trying hard to forget it, but it still fresh in my mind... I really cant do it !!! I'm so sorry for it anyway. I know u wont read my blog, I'm sincerely say Sorry here. I don't which my friends to be my 'water balloon' to fulfill my needs. I'm hope you guys understand it ~~~

OK. Its early morning 1.40am right now ~~~ Its time for me to be a sleepy beauty... Wanna Sleep liao... Nitez Bloggers

CNY 2011 Final Shopping

2011-01-20T21:36:00.002+08:00

What A Wonderful Shopping Day For me
Having a Great Shopping @ times square
And Brought A lot of cloths there.
I'm started to love the height that I'm having now

For my history of this year,
I had buy a lot of cloths, shirt, pants, and skirts this year
I think more than 20 pieces (including working shirt)

Hm... A success year for me. I'm decide to stop buying cloths after CNY until my current cloth spoil. Ok. Ready for this CNY. I can drive this year. So I can go Semenyih to find them 'bai nian'
No need wait others to fetch me. =)

I had do something stupid today.... I went to Sunway and from there I'm searching the road to Hilton Hotel, PJ and I found it ~~~ But A danger turning had done by me. I'm almost been crashed by a car which I didnt know that the road is for turning, not going straight. Luckily, nothing... Thanks GOD =)

Brought A Media Player From Sg Wang today and I'm very satisfied with that player.Build in a Full HD version which it having a wonderful graphic for the movie. I love it anyway, It can give a rest to my lappie which it had been suffer for a whole year for watching drama here. Now, we can use the player and duplicate my laptop =)

Tiring Day for me... WAnna rest now... Tomorrow still same... Working Life is On tomorrow. ITs time for sleep in terms to rest my face and rest my face. Nitez Bloggers ~~~

What Should I Do?

2011-01-15T21:53:00.000+08:00

Its too late to do it now
Just recently, I just saw my Current Issue in Management Accounting was not exceeding 50 marks in my final degree exam.
And this lead me to taking all over again ACCA paper F5

ARGH!!!

I'm not suppose to have this mistake actually
I had never been careless too much
Never get less than 50 marks in exam all this while
And this is first time ever
Break my own records
Get 47 marks for that particular paper

=.="

Due to certain reasons and incident,
(Not much ppl know abt it, including my dummy sister)

I didnt spend much time in my studies
And lead to the situation now
I'm feeling bad
And wanna cry out loud
But I knew, cry wont settle down the problem
And i'm choose to pretend nothing
Just nothing ~~~

Recalling back last year January,
I felt I'm stupid,
Why I have been spending all my time for doing a stupid things which it never give me a good ending,
And not to my study,
And now, wasting my time and energy to re-take the paper which it can be exempted if I put more a bit effort to it

Everything is too late ~~~
Up and Down, cant controlled myself now
Don't know what should do now
I'm afraid to fall in love again
Afraid of the same incident happen again
Afraid of everything

New Year EVe !!!!

2010-12-31T20:37:00.004+08:00

Hm... New Year Eve. A Year Passed Again ~~~ And I'm Older One Year Again. Lately, I'm use to say Old one year rather than big One year. Maybe It use to be in my life. Usually, Eve of the celebration, I used to stay at home rather than packing with others outside. Hm... Silently write blog at home at a bad things. OK. Stop grumble for it.

Looking back my post on 31/12/2009, here the link (CLICK HERE)

I had made the 2010 resolutions and I manage to achieve some of it. List as below

Get a well result in my final degree exam
Learn to be a skill driver, not a rough driver
Find a better job after completing my degree
Make rebounding to my hair

These 4 resolutions that I had achieved in year 2010. Firstly, I manage to get 2nd Upper for my degree in University of Greenwich. Secondly, I manage to drive car alone. Manage to drive to Sunway, Times Square and Midvalley. Thirdly, I get a job which nearby my house and it saves my transport fees which I can walk to work. Fourthly, Rebonding of Hair???? I had made twice rebounding in year 2010. Hahahaha. I achieved it all the time. =)

Hm... Thinking for the resolutions next year. Well, Nothing could be say, but here some of the resolutions in year 2011 which I wish to achieved next year.

Passed ACCA Papers at lease 1 paper (if possible 2 papers)
Find A Partner (boyfriend which meet my expectation)
Diet (Losing at lease 5kg the whole year)
Learn to make up and clear up my acne on my face
Packing up myself =)
Most important is get better in my health condition (nt often flu and fever)

well, nt much can be think now... I guess next year should be a busy year for me. Started tomolo, my schedule had full. Working from Mon to Fri, Sat Study whole day, Sunday Family day. Therefore i'm only available at night. So I guess, single life should be more suitable for me. Unless I could found a boyfriend who as busy as me =) but I guess is impossible to find it, such a good guy surely been booked by others =)

~~~ Anyway, A good year ahead ~~~
Best wishes from me for the last post in year 2010

Never give up unless is really needs to giving up
Nothing is impossible, you can make it possible if u willing to achieve it
Nothing to be fear, Just be yourself, Thats Enough.
Finally, A warm great wishes from me on the last 2 hours of year 2010,

Say Goodbye to Year 2010 and Welcoming Year 2011

Happy New Year !!!!

Its Christmas Eve Again

2010-12-24T21:10:00.002+08:00

Christmas Eve Again. Again im older one years old again. 7 days more, the year of 2011 will arriving. Christmas??? Nothing Special for me... just like a normal day and like normal holiday.

Actually, this year Christmas I should celebrate at Singapore which my friends they all went to Singapore for the celebration. I wish to go but, some matter had blocked me to do so. 25th of Dec, I need dinner with my relatives in Kuala Selangor and 26th of Dec dinner with my mum at Tenji Puchong. There is no squeeze time for me to went there. Kinda bored day actually.

I keep thinking of the resolutions that I wrote beginning of year 2010. I think, I havent achieve all of it. For sure, one of it can't be completed. Try to guess what??? Yes, is it.. I havent diet for this year. LOL. Keep gaining weight and not losing the weight. =)

Christmas... No special calls, Special Message or special outing. Stay at home, and watch tv... Hahahaha... Ok. I should stop writing now... Wanna be a sleepy beauty. =)

...Nitez Worlds...

Merry Christmas Everyone !!!

Registered

2010-12-20T20:42:00.003+08:00

Finally, registered. Wondered what I had been registered? Married? Study? Handphone package? Trip Package? Or anything else???

Yes, I had registered for ACCA. Finally I registered. Coming nearer to my mission. But the problem is, I have to spend over my saturday to my study next year. No more saturday daylight life for me. Only can go for the night life. But its worth, sacrifice this life for a few year and get a brighter and better future.

Recalling back when last Saturday our gathering conversation, when they talk about study, I really wanna slap those who say ACCA until no value at all. Hey, please la. If it no value at all, why big firm have a high demand of ACCA holder?? And it recognize globally. I still remember what they say. They said, only stubborn people who will study ACCA and and ACCA only for those stubborn people study. It was fresh in my mind. And one more, the did mention that ACCA are common now and useless for future. I know you guys love CIMA alot. But you can 'step' too over to ACCA although you don't like it. As result, they had made one of my friend who registered ACCA and now she going to study either CIMA or Finance. I can't describe out my feelings, but its really I don't like it. Even you don't like that paper but please, don't influence others to follow ur view. She had made the choice let her go for it. For what you guys influence her until her life so miserable??? I don't understand it !!!

Moody feeling around me today... Don't feels wanna work this week. wanna stay at home for a longer time. Planning to take half day on Thursday... Depending ba... Due to lack of money of this month, I guess I will no taking the half day leave. I just fetch my sis go and back from saloon.

Confusing and Miserable life surrounding me. Should I accept or should I ignore. He finally say it out and waiting for me to accept. I'm afraid it will become a previous case and ending with a unhappy scene. I'm trying hard to get know well him... Previous experience really giving me a big impact and I'm not dare to try it again. It gives me insecure feelings to me. But I wish to have it... What should I do Now??? Confusing !!!

This afternoon a jokes was waking up us. A sudden break down of the whole UBS Accounting System and created a jokes to us. The Conversation start like this. "Should we call the Professor T to come over and fix it??? Another person answer "What Professor T? Its Potato T...." LOL. Whats a funny jokes.... (I guess he wont reading my blog, so I can laugh hard here... Hahahahahaha)

Christmas in 5 days ~~~ I guess, Alone and Lonely Christmas Theme Suit me this year... Nothing for me... But I have my Mr Greyie (my lovely phone) and Mr Turtle (my car) with me this Christmas. They Consider my Christmas Gift this year =)

I Cant Believe it !!!

2010-12-10T21:44:00.003+08:00

Just finish dinner, sharp on 9pm... O_O
Unexpected dinner with someone that I dun really like to dinner with...
Hm... How to say??? If you followed my blog all these while, I guess you know who is it.
What a surprising cases, he said he lost the phone and we waiting the phone call at home
And we end up eating at the stall in front of my office... OMG!!! Is here again!!! Sien lo...

And I said I'm going to study ACCA next month and he sudden agree and ask me how much for the fees... and he said, he will bear for it !!! OMG!!! I was surprise for it... I dunno should be happy or unpleasant. Happy because there is no funding for me in future. Unpleasant because feels there is a motif behind its action. Mr Secret are right, he told me that 'he' will funding my ACCA. I never taught he so understand him, even more understand than me. I taught 'he' wont funding me anymore....

What a surprising things I heard from my bro. He told me, after completing the 14 papers in ACCA, it needs 3 years practical experience before becoming the member of MIA which the subscription fee were more than 1k per year. Damn expensive man!!! Better dun become member so soon...

Since he said he will funding me, I will looking for the any investment to invest in and earn money from there. I might go for the 30 years investment policy... Worth and easy, but the risk is when it the company declared bankruptcy... Thats gone of your fund ~~~

I saw Mr Secret again today... He looks different from last time. before he on leaves. I cant describe the feelings, just like a weird feels to him, its exactly different from last time. Like a close friend, or well-known friend. Just feel nothing and my heart beat are not beating as fast as a lightning. Just like a normal friends feelings. Maybe this a good beginning for me...

Christmas is around and my Saturday timetable full for this two week and not to the week of Christmas and New Year... NO activity and outing that two particulars days... Maybe its fated I'm going to stay alone at home to celebrate this two special days... Stay at home sleeping better. Unless somebody dated me out. but i guess no one is going to date me =)

Anyway, just let it be... I wanna rest now... being flu for 2 days... and Now is time for me to rest more... Sleep early and wake up early. follow mum to pasar and buy pineapple tomorrow. LOL

OK. Nites Guys !!!!

First Time Ever !!!

2010-12-07T20:53:00.005+08:00

First time ever things I do alone:

Drive alone with my MR TURTLE to Cheras, Taman Yulek on Saturday night ~~~ Its a sudden outing actually. Saturday, I had went to Sunway University College with my friends, Ainie, who will study ACCA with me soon. And I didnt plan to out again at night. A sudden call from my dear, nicole who ask me to go Yulek eat steamboat that night. I was thinking twice before I answer her coz I'm not really know the road to there. I just remember the road until the roundabout at Tesco Cheras there. And after getting an advice from nicole and sharon, I guess I know how to go there. And I try my luck to find it and finally I get to there. And back home around 12 something midnight. Everyone is worry for me as they know that this was my first time to drive alone so far. But actually its not too far. Just 15 minutes to there. I'm not joking or speeding. Its really 15 minutes reach home. Quite a wonderful night outing experiences. At lease my mum and bro grumble so much lately. I think they started to let me go to drive alone. I'm quite happy for it =)

Sunday, Showering for Mr Turtle... And first time ever, I washed with heart and care for it... Shinny Shinny Turtle is here for me...

Drive to Midvalley with my lovely sister, Polly ~~~~ Today was the Public Holiday and I feel bored at home and ask my sis who busying study for her SPM to outing a while with me. I think she need relax. She too stress.... I can see she really care for this exam this time. I guess, she scare she will not get a better result for it. At midvalley, I'm finally get to brought the things that need to buy. Btw, its really 'pai seh' when I buy it. Many ppl looks at me when I was buying it (As I dont need it actually).. Hm... Just forget it.. I alr buy and nothing to be fear now. Beside that, I brought a Mini Cardigan (which is purple colour, my favourite colour) and a light purple tank top which I love it... I means the design and colour. I love it... And it only cost RM30... Kinda cheap... I going to have a 'crazy shopping' on next two week. I need to register my ACCA and plan the budgeting for the next month before starts shopping. As I need to bear for the petrol fees starts next year onwards. Need a clearly budgeting. =)

Christmas is Around. And this year, I have a strong feel that I will be celebrating Christmas Alone at home. Christmas ~~~~ Some of my friends told me that Christmas will brings a beginning nor ending of the year. It may brings a miracle or normalcy to us... Everyone is hopping miracle will happen and this will be happen one in a millions. I guess, there is no miracle for me. Better stay at home and sleep if no outing that day =)

Argh!!! Forget about it... Time to Clean Room before sleeping ~~~~

2010-11-22T21:27:00.005+08:00

~~~~ Convocation Day ~~~~

Date: 20 November 2010
Venue: Prince Hotel Kuala Lumpur
Time: 8am to 1pm

Finally, I'm officially graduated !!!!

I'm a true degree Student now !!!!

My friend just asked me, How do you feel that day???

And I just answer "Just a normal day. Nothing Special !!!"

But Its true... Nothing Special... Really nothing special !!!!

Some Photo captured From there...

Pretty Girls Here... All Sweet Sweet and Shine Shine....

Serious expression of photo capture...

Another Serious Post of us.... Hahahahaha

~~~ My Lovely Brother (this real bro ok) and my cutie sister ~~~
Some ppl say that my bro and I looks like a couple and me and my sister look like friend more than sibling.
Anyone Agree with me???? hahahahaha

After wearing robe and mortal board ~~~ Look Smart??? Of Course ~~~~

The Family Photo of BA (Hons) Accounting and Finance. Our group is the most largest group of student graduated among all

Natural Expression of us... We really happy and shinny smile
~~~ UOG February intake Class A ~~~

Another Photo With Our Beloved Strategy Financial Management (SFM) Lecturer... Miss your voice so much~~~~

~~~ Happy Happy ~~~

YEAH !!! WE ARE GRADUATED !!!!

Half of the Family Photo ~~~~

Pretty Girls and with out diploma Handsome Lecturer Mr Soorya !!!!

Again is Us Again.... Bored of us???? Hahahaha

Nicole and Me... My best friend since first day till now !!!!

Thanks Vivian that willing to come to our convo... We appreciate it... Our friends since diploma

Hong Zai ~~~ Thanks for coming too =)
I will attend ur convo as well next year... We waiting for it ^^

Ms Mag ~~~ I'm sorry to disappointed you.. My Audit and Assurance paper not getting the marks as you predicted... I'm really sorry for it ~~~

Yeah !!! Finally I'm graduated !!! And This not my last graduation !!! I will be graduated in next 5 years if I manage to do it !!! I swear I will do it ~~~

Anyway, A happy and memorable moment for me... Thanks for my parents who willing to attend my Convo and thanks to my parents who willing to fund me study in this 4 years...

Although I cant get the 1st Hons in this Graduation, But i think its worth for me... Frankly say, I'm not putting 100% effort on it to study ~~~ Due to certain incident happened (I guess most of the UOG Mate and my beloved babies knows what happened) I cant really concern trade towards my studies... That case its really affected me alot... Insomnia, Nightmare, everything happen in that 3 months... Luckily my heart is enough to support it... Or else, I guess, I'm dead that time....

Everything Over... nothing to be argue anymore... This my fate and I have to accept it ~~~

Anyway, Happy Convocation Day For me !!!!

Unexpected Outing

2010-11-17T20:53:00.007+08:00

Unexpected Outing. What does it means by it??? Well, the story started like this. Actually, I don't have mood to go out today as yesterday 11.30pm I had been 'saman' by police for illegal turning... Haiz... What a bad day ~~~ And I don't hope to go out anymore.

Suddenly, I felt wanna go times square a while to do some window shopping as nothing to do at home. So I plan to drive to there. And now the story begin.

Early in the morning, I wake up and online my MSN, facebook and run download. And sudden, one of my UOG mate who chatting with me and asking me what plan for today. So I told him that me, sharon, ah kit and nicole going to shopping at times square. So he think a while and decide to join us. And I told him that we meet there around 1pm. And I go out at 11am. He was shocked and asked me go out early for what??? And I said I wan do some personal things there. =) And he asked my phone no, and I gave him. And I offline later.

Around 10.55am, I was planning to drive out and be-ready to start up the engine, a call from him rang. And he was asking me whether wanna fetch me or not. And I say, OK. =)

So he fetched me and he teach me how to use smart tunnel to times square. Its really a fast journey. Worth to given Rm2 and save my time to stuck in the jam. Quite comfortable sitting inside his car, listening to some love song which most of it was my favourite song ;)

Then we having a lunch at VIVO, the American Style Pizza. And I saw all of them using iphone 4. OMG!!! It makes me wanna have it too... Haiz... Too bad... I cant have it anyway... Den we shop around, walk around. I'm afraid will bored him as he look bored with us.

I had discover something from him. I asked him which secondary school you from?? And he told me, he was from Sentosa, which same secondary school with me. I can't believe it that he same school with me and I never seen him before in school. Hm... what a conscious !!!

We went back home around 4 somethings and he need to have a dinner with his family and me too, went back home and dinner with family too. So he fetch me back home. On the way back home, he sudden ask me a weird question. He asked me who is the guy always be with me in LRT last time??? And he did mention that was during the diploma time. I was surprises, he know me since diploma time.

This question have be played around my mind quite a long time ago. I was thinking, why everyone noticing me while I was in diploma and I'm don't even noticing them while I was there??? Is a unsolvable question for me. I'm really dont have any idea on you. Maybe I'm really a tiger which the head dunno how to turn left and right, only look forward and towards.

Anyway, its a great outing with you guys.

~~~ Nicole Poi, Sharon Lai, Wallance Lim and Yoon Huan ~~~

Ok. Its time for me to look back the Sentosa School Magazines and See who is
Yoon Huan anyway. ^^

Great Outing With Them

2010-11-14T21:19:00.000+08:00

A great outing with them, I means my university-mate who always there for me whenever I need them. We went to sing k, shopping, Steamboat buffet and Movie at night. I realize that I'm really happy when having a date with them. Just like a freedom power pushing me to talk everything without noticing others expression and feelings. We went to sing k at Greenbox, and finally, I'm latest among all to reach there. I think is the first time. I had late than them. Usually, I'm the earliest to there and taking the mic without allow others to take it. LOL

I had dedicated those old song, not really than old, just a few years ago... and sang quit well la (since I'm banana girl, you know....) Hm... We went to buy Convo stuff, like convo shirt, shoes and etc. walking here and there created a fun for us... They swipe card like swiping money out... keep swiping.. and I dun have a credit card at all...

During the steamboat dinner time, we did talk a lot of things. I never taught they so noticing me during the diploma time. When I was asking, when is the first time you guys saw me in college? They manage to answer me and describe my condition to me. I was shocked when they told me. I don't even noticing them at all.. I'm glad to have a friend like you guys...

Three of them giving a same answer to me. They answered me "you look poor when I'm first time saw you. Like being caged in a cage". LOL. I was laughing non-stop when they told me. And they did say, they have same class with me not only once or twice, is more than that. I cant recalling back my memory... Maybe I was having a bad memory power...

We watched unstoppable... And its a nice movie. First time ever, I watched movie with you guys, Wallances, Sharon and Ah Lai. Second time with Sharon and Ah Lai and first time with Wallance. A great mvoie time with them. And this my first time watch midnight movie at Pavilion. I had given my first time to you guys... LOL

First time watch movie at Pavilion, don't misunderstanding... Hahahahahaha

Here some picture to be shared.... Capture by iphone 4 (not my phone. Ok? I dun have money to buy iphone 4, Although it was my dream phone)

Mr Ah Lai... Nice post and white teeth... keekekeke.... Don't let him see my post... or else he will kill me... Btw, by judging this photo, try to guess how old is he? Can you guess it????

Me, Wallances and Sharon... I'm shortest among all.... T_T
Btw, I'm look like a children when I'm with them... Just like big bro bringing a small sister go out...

Anyway, its really a great outing day... Steamboat Buffet as Dinner, Movie at night, Sing k in morning and Shopping at Pavilion. Although I brought a little things, but its worth... I'm love to shopping with you guys...

Plan to buy Nokia N8 later.... waiting me fund enough first... Probably Next month... Next month...

Nokia N8

TO be coming to my house....

LOL

Start my dream night...

...Sweet Dreams...

Sudden Shopping Day !!!

2010-11-09T07:06:00.008+08:00

Great Outing Day With My beloved sister, Polly Yeoh (I guess, you guys know who is she) as we go for sudden shopping at KL today.

At first, I taught that I wanna go MidValley as there having a PC Fair. I plan to buy a RMVB player so that I can watch drama freely at home. But a sudden taught appear in my mind. Suddenly, I wanna go Uniqlo which located at Fahrenheit 88. And we end up to go KL and not to midvalley.

Uniqlo is the 1st Japanese Brand Cloth Shop which is the 1st and the only one in Malaysia. I can't believe it, that the customer need to have a long queue before entering the shop and I can see most of the customer who went out from that shop are taking at lease one bag of the product from there. I wondered whats the unique of the product there. Due to the long queue that need to take, I'm decided to not going it and wait for next week or the following month to go for it.

So we went to Pavilion and Having a Snowflakes Deserts there. Its delicious the desert the especially the sweet potatoes desert... I love it !!!!

We shop around and buy around. We had brought alot of things. Cloths, Shoe, Toys, even my car pillow that I dreamed for a long time and finally it had discount for it. I'm so happy for it =)

Here some of the picture we capture there. Having lunch at sushi king and snap alot of picture.

Our Lunch @ sushi King... Here the bento and some of the sushi....

The Snowflakes @ Pavilion. The grass jelly ice and the sweet potatoes ice deserts.... Its pretty nice !!!

Due to rushing of time, I had combined the photo into one to save time and energy. Any comment on it? And last question from me, Do we look alike? I means Do we looks like sibling?

My lovely Star Pillow, I'm finally get you back and Welcome Joining Turtle Family... Cutie Sotong will be join us as turtle family too... =)

Finally, Tarts from John King as Present for my Bro who fetch me to Pavilion today ~~~ Unfortunely, it broken while on the way back home... Its delicious tarts, especially the chocolate tarts... It taste like muffin, chocolate muffin =)

A wonderful tiring day for me. I'm enjoying shopping with my sister and she could give a lot of comment and idea for me to buy a things. Hm... Waiting for the next outing, have to wait her exam ends...

Year 2010 is ending soon. Its time for me to review back my previous post and see whether I had achieved the resolution for the year. Still have a month time to achieve it...

Ok. Time to preview... Nites Blogger ~~~~

Halloween Night

2010-11-05T20:50:00.003+08:00

Have a great and wonderful Halloween Night with my beloved sister @ Midvalley, Pavillion and MCD

We went for a movie before depart to Midvalley. I'm finally learn how to go Desa Petaling. I means from my house to desa petaling. There is a MBO cinema and it empty all the time. For you guys information, that cinema is for those who wanted to watch the movie at popular place and you cant manage to buy the ticket there, you can choose to come MBO desa petaling. Its always available for it =)

Frankly say, MBO cinema is not suck, but it more 'louya' than GSC. From what I can see la, the sound system quite bad... And the scene is not wide as others. Maybe the room is small. But the seats are comfortable than others.

Later on, we heading to Midvalley and plan to eat sushi zanmai and the queue is too long and we decide to change place to Sushi King. I felt that sushi king sushi are in bad condition. Its totally suck... Not as nice as last time...

Walk a while @ midvalley and we heading to steven corner, OUG. And I eat a maggi goreng there. It had been a long time that I didnt sit at mamak before. I think, this is the first time in year 2010.

One of my friend suggested to clubbing but as we know, halloween night, club and pub definitely full of people. So we went to Pavillion, Spazzio to have a drink there. I'm afraid will be drunk and end up with drinking Hoegardens. It doesn't look like me. I wanted to order a Cocktail but I'm scare my face will turn to 'tomato' as I will red as I drink wine.

And finally Our last station, Kuchai Lama, MCD. First time ever, I was eat Mcflurry at middle of the Night. Imagine, 3am eating a Mcflurry. Its feels GOOD !!!!

Reach home @ 4am and quickly take a short shower and went off to bed. End up that wake up at 7am coz I had promised my mum to baked a pizza early in the morning as breakfast for the day. No choice, promise means promise. So i have to do it.

And the whole sunday, my eyes cant even open up. Even I ask my bro to drive car as my eyes was tiring cant see the road clearly....

But its worth to do it... At lease we cant talk girly stuff, gossip others, be myself like usual and the most important things, I dun need to wear a 'mask' when facing them.

A Wonderful and Happy Halloween Night for me...

But when the Halloween Night passed, its started a nightmare for me... I will keep thinking back the pass... Thinking back how 'he' treats me and how 'he' hurt me... I cant forget it, I wish to erase all out, but my heart is pain from a piece to piece... Little little till in deeper part...

I wish there is a time machine to turn back the time. I wish to turn in back and starts all over again... And there wont be a hurting memory in my mind and it wont keep repeating in my mind... I hate it !!!

I need a time machine but I knew its impossible to happen.... Impossible, Impossible and Impossible !!!!

Did I feel Lonely?

2010-11-03T21:26:00.001+08:00

Regarding the title above, Yes!!! I did feel lonely... I saw most of my friend all been couple and suddenly I feel I'm a failure. I had been single for a year and till now havent found my Mr Right. From what I can see from my friend facebook update, they manage to find a couple, where here they break up and found another in the coming day. I was wondered, whether I'm too protective myself or too conversative for it. Why they can find and not to me? Is my problem or others problem?

I wish to have a Mr Right for me whenever I need him. But yet, most of my friend are girls and there seldom a guy around me... Even my working environment... All girls and there is no guy at alll

I knew Mr Right can't be simpily find and choose but I really wish to be in relationship

I really wish too

Xenri, The Japanese Cuisine

2010-10-27T20:45:00.004+08:00

A wonderful moment with colleague last Thursday (22/11/2010). I still remember and it was fresh in my mind. I learn a lesson that day. Not to say yes all the time. Due to one words which spoken by me, had lead to misunderstanding of all of us. It happen just like this. Our company 'young master' had come to our office and saw me key-ing the opening balance for the account. And he sudden ask, do you know that can restore the Print Chart of Account every time you key in the account? And I Don't know whats wrong with me and I accidentally say YES !!! And this "YES" words had lead a lot of misunderstanding of all of us. I had nearly make my beloved colleague crying at there and I cant do anything at all. Its end up with I'm crying too... I was hiding inside the store room and cry alone. I never taught the word "YES" had make this situation like this. And I feel guilty for it. My tears always not listen to me. I think my tears had drop almost 1 hour. I keep hiding and seeking place to be hide. And finally, I hiding in the toilet. On that moment, I was thinking, I'm so stupid and silly. Recalling back now, I felt that I'm really stupid. And Learn a lesson today ~~~ Never jump into the un-clear conversation ~~~

Forget about it. After work, we went to Xenri, The Japanese Cuisine at Old Klang Road which right beside ELKEN there. The food quite nice. Quite a nice feel restaurant. Suitable for photo snapping and relaxing. Affordable price and food. I cant believe that I cant finish up my Katsu Don Rice. Maybe I was too tiring of crying at office. =P

Here some of the Picture of it... Enjoy it !!!

~~~~ Xenri The Japanese Cuisine ~~~~

~~~~ The Inner Side of Xenri ~~~~

~~~~ Pretty Colleagues ~~~~

~~~~ My eyes were swollen...Looks Ugly ~~~~

~~~~ I love the Oyster ~~~~ Its delicious ~~~~

And end up, my face, again acnes
All comes in one shot
And Now Suffering with Ugly Face
So better dun ask me out for this few weeks,
or else, you will see an ugly Priscilla In front of you
Maybe this is the best Halloween gift.. LOL

OK

...its time to rest...

Nitez peoples =)

HATE IT !!!

2010-10-21T22:14:00.002+08:00

I hate you for being so cruel,
Hurt people without notice for it

I hate you for being a cold blood human,
Never and ever give any 'face' to others

I hate you for arguing with it
Straight away mention in a closing room

I hate you for walking without any sound
You will scare me every time I saw you

I hate you for being talking too softly
You will lead a misunderstanding to others

I hate you for calling my name too suddenly,
You will scared me for no reasons

I hate you for makes me cry today
Due to your availability, you ruined our life here

I dont wish too see u again,
But I knew, it wont happen to me,
Unless I resign from here...

If you reading my blog, You should know I was mention of you...
Yes !!! IS YOU !!!!

M* S****T

I will keep silent everytime you guys talking,
I will pretend nothing happen,
And waited you call me and I will act for it

I will never forget the incident happens today...
Tears are always right,
It represent our heart, the true feelings of us...
I believe to my tears....
And it proven everything.....

Maybe they are right, I was too naive for everything
I was too naive until believing everything,
Believe that they will helped me,
Believe that they will brings me a bright future,
Believe that they will train me and appreciate me
Everything is too late to mention it,
I had enter to a place that I should not entered.

Recalling the things that my dad told me when I invited him to attend my convo,
He dare to ask me to call 'that particular person' to attend my convo...
OMG!!! When i hurt it my heart is broken,
On the spot, I wanna tell my dad that,

Hey, is my convo, whats wrong with her now?

And my dad did told me that dont ever tell her that I was working in this firm.
I was thinking, if you scare so much for not letting her know, why you place me here?
I should not appear in this firm if this really happen.
I hate for for making such a decision...

Since this incident happen, I'm totally lost my trust to all the guy in world...
As I was born in a single family, I can understand it...
No matter what happen, I cant pretend that nothing happen

First >>> Office Matter that our "LOVELY" half colleague (which is a guy and have a special identity @ my office) had make my life miserable and makes me crying like a hell at @ office today

Second>>> Regarding my dad matter, I dont think there is any good guy in this world. As people say around. there is no cats that not eating fish, are the cats are same just like those guy... They are same... no matter how sweet they are, how good they treat you, they will demand something for you... For me, love is just like a trading.... trade for a better things

I'm not intend to involve in any relationship... And I dont think it will brings a good ending for me... I wish to have it but I can't accept it ~~~~

I want to 'pak toh' like others girl, I need happiness, I need care and love, I need someone to share my problem and happiness, I need someone to accompany me to go anywhere I wan, I need some to talk with me when I was lonely, I need someone to hug be and lend a shoulder for me when I shedding tears, I need it...

But

I will never find it in reality, It will occur in a dreams...

It will comes true, but not to me...

2010-10-19T21:14:00.002+08:00

REIGN OF ASSASSINS

A wonderful action and romance movie to be watch. I love the story line alot although the poster are not attracting my attention and my intention to watch it.

First time ever, I had a movie time with Sharon and ah lai. A wonderful movie session. Although its only 2 hours but it worth. At lease is my first experience with them.

WE actually think of buying The Child Eyes movie ticket but it SOLD OFF !!! So we decided to watch this movie instead of nothing to be do.

Im remember a good phrase from this movie. It sound like this "I would turn into a stone bridge and endure for over 500 years from rain and storm just wants you to pass by the bridge"

What a wonderful meaning phrase. I was wondered, if there is a real fairy tales that human can turn into a stone bridge, what will happen to the world.

If we think from the opposite way, if there is a girl/guy who telling this out, it brings a meaning that it proven how deep a lot to their behalf... I was wondered whether this will happen to me??? I guess not !!!!

Well, Stop dreaming for it again... I remind myself again...

Anyway, its a good movie to watch, Guys, try to watch it and you will get my meaning behind my post =)

Dislike my Working Environment

2010-10-14T20:59:00.002+08:00

I hate working in my current working area
Hate for being no schedule working task,
Hate for nothing for me to do,
Hate for being scold without any reasons,]
Hate for being monitor by 'a lot' of CCTV
Hate for forcing me doing the work that I hate to do

I love account a lot and they purposely dont allow me to touch it
I hate doing admin stuff and they forcing me to do it
I'm just like a 'BALL" which kicking here and there
I hate for being such a life in working area
I wish I have a list to do for the entire period of the year

Recalling to the past,
I'm regret for entering this firm,
I shouldn't listen to them
That this job will bring a bright future for me,
But so far, I cant see anything,
Can't see my future,
Can't what the usefulness of me in office,
I'm felt that I'm only the STUPID, DUMMY, NOOBIE person

I have a taught of RESIGN from this environment,
I'm afraid i will be crazy one day,
Crazy due to the stress and environment there
I wish to 'TERMINATE' everything here...

Coz I'm believe only "TERMINATED" person will no feel anything,
Pain, regardless, sadness and happiness
Everything gone... And now, I was waiting for the time to come...
Let the time proven everything,
Not avoiding and hiding
Instead of accepting
Yes, it will come to me soon

Tomorrow?

Yeah!!! I'm wish too !!!

Learning Day: 101010

2010-10-11T20:44:00.002+08:00

101010 Finally Arrive !!! And nothing special happen to me... Just staying at home and watch drama... But I had learn something on that day... I learned how to wear contact lens... Finally I'm start wear it !!!

Recalling the previous day... o91010... I had went to with UOG Colleges and we had a wonderful happy day... Sing K, Eating Lunch @ Tbowl, and Steamboat dinner @ Cheras... A wonderful moment there... Although it tiring, but it worth... At lease I'm happier than staying home alone...

And Today, I received a call from him again. I hate for receiving his call again... I'm happy when he said he will attend my convo @ Prince Hotel Next month but when he ask me to call 'that particular' person, I'm started to hate him... I HATE YOU FOR ASKING ME TO CALLING IT !!!

DONT EVER I WILL CALL IT.... KEEP ON YOUR DREAM WHICH WILL NEVER COME TRUE !!!! If really ask me to give a call to it, I rather you dont come to attend my convo... At lease I'm happier than now...

Mr Secret appear again and he helped me to change PC... My colleagues was envy for it.. hey guys, I'm not asking him to help me, just he wanted to help den i just accept... Actually, he quite a good guy but his attitude, and his behaviour are weird a bit. Maybe he was born in a rich and too affectionate family thats makes his character like that. But I was angry to him that he taught I was stealing company PC on Friday when I bring my PC for my colleagues husband to repair it... Do I need to do so? I guess you knows my family well, and do I need to steal ur PC for my own benefit? NO WAY !!!

Sometimes I feel I'm stupid or numb... I felt that, I'm not really a important person in company. I wish I could a list to do just like my colleagues at account department... I hate for asking senior for having any job for me, any task for me to do whenever I had free time to do it.. I'm dislike to being a life like this...

OK, Its time for take off my lens from my eyes...

.... Sweet dreams ....

What A Conscious !!!

2010-10-06T21:10:00.003+08:00

Phone Rang at my house, and it brings a happy and sad news to us. I hate that for being such a 'hiding tortoise'. I hate that using our name for satisfy others... I hate it... I keep telling my mum that ignore them... I wont avow them no matter what happen, FOREVER AND EVER !!!!

DUN DREAM THAT I WILL ACCEPT YOU GUYS !!! I HATE IT !!!

Forget about the matter above ...

Again, I met Mr Secret again, somewhere around my in and out area.. what a conscious, we wore a same colour and pattern of shirt.... and it make a joke around it... i knew that he have this type of shirt, and I never taught he wearing it today, same as mine...

Mr Secret had use a perfume today, and it smell goods.. Hm... that's a prefect smell of perfume, not like last time, just like a aerosol spray (which can killed the mosquitoes and flies)

He did bring a badminton racket with him, I guess, He loves badminton very much... Wondered where he play badminton... wanna to ask him but everytime when I be ready to asked him, he will disappear in front of me... I had no chance to ask actually...

Its ok for me... There will be a next time for us...waiting for the next meeting of MR Secret and I must get a chance to ask him this time... Wish me Luck !!!

Shocking Morning !!!

2010-10-04T21:05:00.002+08:00

What the Shock and Startled Morning today
Once I touch my card towards the machines
And Open up the door
And Saw
A large Wide Monitor was inside Office
Never Expected that This will happen
The authorities Just mentioned last Friday
And changed on Sunday (Know it through my boss's Maid)
I was Shock when I walk to my place
And Saw, it was clean and tidy

*normally, my place wont be so tidy and clean, I will put my pen, paper, pen-drive everywhere on the table*

The first things I look at was my pen and pencil whether it still on my table (its my own asset, I'm sure worry for it)
What a shock morning,
Imagine when u working in a LCD that 18 inches wide...
Its TOO BIG !!!
Until I can use to to watch drama if my boss allow me to do so =P
But the wording in the monitor quite blur,
And It makes me not feel comfortable of it...
Maybe its haven get used of it..
Sooner will be fine I guess..

Argh.. Tiring day... Feel sleepy, but I wanna watch 公主嫁到 as the last episod have release...
I must be faster than other... OK..
Its time for DRAMA !!!! =P

PAIN !!!

2010-10-01T21:43:00.002+08:00

My teeth... Arggh !!! Suffering in pain...
Can't really chew the food
Frankly say, I had been swallow food for 2 weeks
And today, I went to see teeth Dr
And it say my teeth need to plug off
As it does not enough place to grow out...
I hate plug off teeth... Its pain and disgusting
Imagine... the sound.. 'grak, grak, grak" inside ur mouth..
And the blood keep flooding out to ur mouth...
And u cant eat anything...
Its suffer you know...
I had been suffer for 4 years...
And I dun wish to suffer again...
Pray for my teeth not going to spoil...

Again and Again

2010-09-30T20:52:00.003+08:00

I'm Sorry Mr Turtle ~~~ Its my fault make you hurt again.... I never taught that will hurt up ur back and even your 'skin' also peel out... A Million Sorry presented to you.... I wondered, I had pass by that corner more than 10 times I think and I can't understand why this time will hurt you... Maybe its my problem or maybe im too nervous... I can't do anything now... Waiting my bro back and scold me 'gao gao' later...

Office Life is kinda bored right now... My colleague, who is a company secretary, is going to resign soon and I'm going to take partly of her work as my task for future... I'm keep thinking that, I'm studying account, and graduated as Bachelor(Hons) in Accounting and Finance and now, not working in my own field... And keep doing those secretary things, like preparing form, filing, photostatting, and learning those secretary works.

Few years ago, I never taught that secretary are so professional, I taught it just a normal secretary work such as receiving call, arrange director appointment, and preparing document for director. Company Secretary are really professional. They can have their own license and have their rights to make any decision. If I know it 2 years ago, i will choose to study this field which is business and management.... Its too late to regret now... I have no choice to turn back...

Kinda confusing for my future now... Im graduate in accounting field and now working as tax assistant and company secretary work... Wondered whether I'm really suitable to work in this field or accounting field. I love account, but I had no chance to touch it. I did told my boss that "Can I work in Account department?" and she ask back me a good question which I dunno how to answer it. She asked me "Can you handle the account? It need a lot of experience and skill to do it." I had nothing to say about it... What can I say anymore since she like that told me? I'm guess, I'm not going to touch account for this few year unless I resign from this company... Forget about it...

Good news arrival to me, my bro who just come back from work had say something make me happy =)

He didnt scold me for hurting Mr Turtle, instead he keep advice me for drive carefully next time and don't so fast turn corner and drive slowly next time.. I'm so happy of it... I taught he will scold me 'gao gao'. Thanks bro, you made me confident to drive again...

I met Mr Secret again today... Somewhere around my house area... He so funny today... Maybe im too sensitive, I can feel that he keep laughing while talking with me, I don't know whether I'm too sensitive or Its really laughing while talking... But whenever I wanna talk with him, I wanna laugh out loud actually... But I'm afraid to do so... I'm afraid he will think me 'siao'... Some weird smell come out from him... I weird smell just like... Don't know how to explain... Maybe he didnt wear perfume thats makes the smell... Mr Secret should use perfume.. But not too heavy... Normal, suitable and nice smell can be acceptable...

~~~ I wonder when I can meet MR Secret again =)

OK

I should stop now... Wanna rest more to get a better health... Wanna keep a better voice to sing k this Saturday... Long time didnt sing k liao... hehehehe...

~~~ Nitez Blogger ~~~

Gathering With Colleges @ Ai Nie House

2010-09-19T21:48:00.006+08:00

Mid Autumn Festival is around and My friend, Ai Nie had held a steamboat gathering at her house last Saturday (18/09/10)

I'm not planning to go at the beginning, but end up with going as Nicole called me and ask me whether go or not. Hm... Not a bad experiences. First time ever, I saw a near fire cracker as it pop up to the sky. Its really beautiful !!! Its Amazing... First experience of it.

I love steamboat alot ~~~ As my bro is going to steamboat too ~~~ But he's going to Hoi Tong Steamboat at Serdang Villages. I love tomyam soup steamboat... End up with my face pop up some acne and suffering in pain... ><

Here some picture capture on the mid Autumn Festival Gathering ~~~

Our Degree and Diploma mate ~~~ Nicole, MoiMoi, Ai Nie and Kelly ~~~

~~~ Family Photo Takes 1 ~~~
Our Diploma April Intake 2006 ~~~ Missing all the time we having in class =)

Before the Gathering Starts, me and nicole did chatting a while regarding to our personal life matters. She did ask me about my love life ~~~ Hm... "I'm not interest to in love" This the answer I given to her... And in my deeper heart answer, I wishing that I'm really in relationship.

Frankly say, I wish to be in relationship actually, but the situation seems like not going to happen since the friends around me were mostly girls and hardly to find a guy...And my family matters had me make lost confident to guy who really trustworthy... And my previous love life experiences are really make me lack confident for it... I cant really trusted a guy 100%

Thats are some of the reasons that I'm not really wanted in love. Single life is comfortable, freedom and easy going. But its make a lonely feels to me ~~~ Whenever I need to talk or going out, no one is there for me... Just like now, I wanted to improve my driving skill, and needs someone to be with me while I'm driving, but there is no one there for me... I don't need sympathy from others... i need a really cares from them... Forgot about it... I should accept this my life... My single life ~~~

Other Picture From the Trip

2010-09-10T21:35:00.008+08:00

Other Picture In Star Cruise + Singapore Picture... All these Picture have been edited to make it look more nicer ~~~

Picture 1
(Given a name by me, Purple Crystal)
In these purple crystal, 6 pretty Girls have posted a different post, which have their own unique.
Pretty, Cutie, Promoting, Happy, Normal and Monkey post are available here =)

Picture 2
(Name given by me, Happy Family)
Family Picture are taken here, facing a huge large sea which can relax our soul and mind, build up a beautiful scene of this picture...

Picture 3
(Name Given By Me, Girly Room)
My room mate, which 3 of us stay in a same room in the trip... We look cute right? Absolutely !!!

Picture 4
(Name Given By Me, Sunshine Family)
Don't you notice it that we smile as shine as the sun?
Well, you can feel how enjoy are us
This Design is a bit antique style as it looks blur abit

Picture 5
(Name Given By Me, Pretty Girls)
How do you think about this picture? Do it look cute? Do the 4 bears in the frame look like us?
Hm... Let you decide for me =)

Picture 6
(Name Given By me, Blacky and Whitey)
If I say that these picture are capture through the antique camera, will you believe it?
*Don't believe what I say, believe to yourselves*

Picture 7
(Name Given By Me, Sleepy Face)
Don't you notice we just wake up from the bed?
We look sleepy as we slept only 6 hours !!!

Picture 8
(Name Given By Me, Priscilla Life on Cruise)
All Picture are captured on the cruise.
Nice Scene right?
Hm... I wish to go again, but not now,
Maybe Next time with someone *special*

Overall Conclusion, the trip are enjoyable, can feel something new from the trip, learn a lesson from there, and most important that I had entered 3 casino in 3 days.

*Tell you guys something to laugh, Did you believe that I entered 3 casino, Star Cruise Casino, Marina Bay Sand Casino and Sentosa Island Casino, the security guard seems like not believe me that I'm 22 years old. They keep looking me from the top to bottom.

OMG !!!
I need to change me style to be more mature next time
This could be a challenging things for me
As my appearance and my height make me looks like a 15 years old student
Maybe I should we some flower cloths
Which Will make me more mature

Argh!!!
Confusing, Don't think anymore
Let the time pass and mature my appearance by myself,
No need change la... "ma fan'
kekekeke

Ok, Its time to bed

~~~ Nitez Blogger ~~~

Tea Time @ Sri Petaling

2010-09-05T20:25:00.006+08:00

Well, A sudden call from my colleague, who suddenly feel bored and wanted to go out for a while. And, I'm who living nearby her house become her target. Hm... Its ok for me. Well, she did ask me to drive and fetch her, unfortunely, I dunno where she stay. Can Be said, I can't recognised the road to her house. I'm totally forgotten. A picture capture there... Here is it...

I'm look weird right? Absolutely, My face full of acne and scar. I'm not sure what happen to me, Its sudden my face pop up a lot of acne and left down the scar due to the acne appear in my face.

During the tea time, first time ever I tasted 'hak lo mai tau fu fah' (in cantonese)
*sorry guys, I dunno how to say in english, ignoring my stupidness*

Quite Delicious. Love it alot... =)

Recalling back some conversation with my sis, we did mention about Pisces Guy around us. Frankly say, I'm don't really understand what is really running on the Pisces Guy mind. I can't read their mind anyway. Pisces are unique. From what I had notice from my view, I felt that Pisces Guy are Egotist. They felt they are the better among all. This from my view la, from what I notice from Pisces Friend around me. Egotist not a bad things. At lease they have their own way and own opinion towards someone and something. Maybe Pisces Guy are not Ego when turns into a relationship. Some people are different from its real person when turns to a 'special relationship' (just like my brother, the way he treats me and treats his GF are totally different !!!) Just forget it. I knew guy is like that.

Currently, I'm trying to improve my driving skill. My brother who sitting beside me, keep scolding me while I'm driving. Oh gosh !!! I was angry in beginning, but sooner, it seems like a habit for me. Once he not scolding me, I feel not comfortable. He said me too nervous while driving, and the problem occur in my hand where I was too hard to holding the sterling. Im finding way to convince myself don't too nervous for it. Any method can be use to relaxing our mind and soul, and make me not too nervous while driving the car? Any suggestion? My bro no longer remind me anymore after this month. He will be busy for his work and I have to drive alone.. Wish me Luck !!!

Star Cruise Virgo + Singapore (3 days 2 Night)

2010-08-27T21:40:00.007+08:00

It had been a long time for Not Updating My Blog Lately. Well, I'm Kinda Busy lately. Wondering What I'm Busying? Yes!! Is it... I'm Busying combining my Travel Photo. Recently, I had went for a trip which is my dream trip. I never taught I could step my leg to it.

Star Cruise Virgo, the world largest ship ever (if I'm not mistaken)
It had 13 floor of ship and it build in a nice and beautiful design.
Here some of the photo that I captured there and I had combined to one picture to easier my blog reader to see it.

~~~ Have Fun !!!

The Star Cruise Virgo Body !!! It wonderful !!! Far Looking it just like a building moving on the sea !!! Its amazing !!!

Notice the Carpet design... It look gorgeous !!! Don't you feel it? Especially when you take these deco to capture photo. It completely PREFECT !!!! (Photo will be upload sooner)

See The decoration around the ship... Its wonderful, Giant Size Chess, Lobster hanging on deck, antique telephone, Mirror lift and etc ~~~

There is a Jacuzzi, Water Theme Park and Swimming Pool Facilities are available for the adult and children.... Children will love it !!!

The cabin... One Cabin can fit 4 person. Quite Small Size cabin, even I turn my body can knock to the wall... But the space is more than enough to stay !!!

The Buffet Meal ~~~ Breakfast and Tea-Time ~~~ Look delicious right? The bread is the most delicious bread that I tasted so far ~~~

Dinner Time !!! Western Food our Choice ~~~ You can choose others, but it might impose some charges on it !!! Notice to the menu before you enter the restaurant ~~~

Next Station, Singapore !!! The amazing world of Singapore ~~~ The Singapore Eyes of Flyer, Marina Bay, Merlion Park, Singapore River and etc ~~~

Our Last Station before depart to KL.... Sentosa Island... Unfortunely, We dont have enough time to enter universal Studio, Only manage to pass by the entrance.

My next mission, Universal Studio... I'm Coming for it !!!!

Uploading some of the photo soon... I need time to re-arrange and upload it as I had been capture for 200 +++ photo.

Or you can visit my facebook if you wish to. I had uploaded some there.

Waiting for my new post ya !!!

Leaving Msia For 3 Days

2010-08-06T22:23:00.003+08:00

Leaving Malaysia For 3 days?

Yes, I'm leaving to Singapore tomorrow.

Kinda Bored trip from what they planned.

First, we enter Star Cruise Ship (Virgo Ship) for 1 day. Then drop by at Singapore and Back to KL by bus. Kinda rushing trip actually.

Hm... It had been a long time that I never join trip. First time ever enter a 10 floor ship and curious to know how does it feel. And first time ever I'm stepping my leg to Singapore Land. Wondering how does other country looks like as I never been to overseas before.

~~~ Waiting for the moment ~~~

Regret

2010-08-03T22:05:00.002+08:00

Regret as my post title?

Yes, its REGRET !!!

I'm regret to go this company trip actually.

After looking the trip schedule today,

I felt like it not worth to go,

Not to the money matter,

But it looks like not really worth,

At first, the cruise attracted me to go,

Coz I never enter the Cruise before,

And wish to enjoy inside the cruise,

But then, now, they say many rules and regulations,

And the time are limited,

It looks like a rushing trip more than a enjoyable trip.

Hm... regret is useless now.

Everything too late to regret.

Its too late to regret,

TOO LATE !!!

I don't have the travel feel for it,

This Saturday gonna to be the day,

And I'm not excited at all,

I wondered, Whether is it my problems?

I can't feel any happiness around me,

Although my colleagues are happy for the trip,

But not to me,

I'm not happy at all,

But turn to worry.

I think is my problem,

My personality problem...

Born in uncompleted family,

Lead me to this situation...

Forget about it !!!!

I guess I cant found my happiness,

.....Unless.....

Someone appear and really brings happiness to me

But it was once in a blue moon

Nobody can stand of my attitude actually

I guess, Nobody can do it

Sick and Recover

2010-08-01T20:58:00.003+08:00

Yes !!! Its finally, Finally, Finally... Finally I'm sick. Its finally after I had been waiting for a month to get sick. Well, it sound crazy right? Absolutely, I'm crazy anyway.

Last Sunday (25 July 2010) I was not feeling so well after having my evening nap. Throat started to dry and pain. I taught it just a normal sore throat. So I don't bother of it. Tried to drink as much water as I can and it end up with going to toilet the whole night. OMG !!! Suffering night for me.

Monday (26 July 2010). Went to work as usual, and forced to eat bihun sup as my throat was pain and dry again. It started to get worst after I ate a sore throat candy. Evening, I not feeling so well as my head started to pain and body feel hot. Off work and quickly went back home, and sleeping.

Tuesday (27 July 2010) Finally, drop down. Went to see dr at Clinic Hope and unfortunely, the clinic was on leaves for one week period. OMG !!! Why on leave? Almost all my medical report was kept there. No choice, went to see another Dr in my house area as I lazy to drove out from Happy Garden. The dr told me that my throat was seriously hurt and I cant even swallow anything. I can felt it too. Did you believe? I can't even swallow my saliva. Its really painful. And I had vomit out what I had eat and drank that time. Imagine, throat illness, throat infection, vomit and cant swallow, what can I do for the rest of my day? Yes, its right !!! Sleeping all the day. MC on Tuesday =)

Wednesday (28 July 2010) My face looks like a vampire as it pale till no blood at all. MC only given for one day, and had to work on Wednesday. My lovely Mummy had bring porridge to my office as she know I cant eat anything outside. Everyone are envy for me =) I'm glad to have such a good mummy. Be with me whenever I needs her ^^ Can't speak well all the time, throat are suffering pain, I had never felt as pain as now, the throat I meant.

The following day, I kept working and living like usual, just change the habit of eating in slow motion, drinking in slow motion. Eating the huge and large medicine, as big as finger antibiotic, and a 'strawberry' lozenges. First time ever tried the strawberry lozenges, its suck !!! I don't like the taste, its weird !!! Tasted like the liquid antibiotic that I had taken during my childhood time. Yucks !!!!

And today, my throat is getting better. And can swallow what ever I want. Did you Believe? I dream of 'him' again. Yes, is he. Appear in my dream again. OMG !!! Its a weird dream. I cant believe it. It was a clear situation there. Even it fresh in my mind now. I hope it wont happen in real life. But I guess, I'm not his cup of tea. I don't think he had a good impression to me as I'm only a miscellaneous staff here. Better this situation stay in my dream forever.

Ish... Forget about it !!! Count down to travel this Saturday. It had been a long time that I never been to travel. I think more than 4 years... Its really a long time ... Hm.. I was wondering, whether I can met any new friend in this trip? Just wait and see, I believe, If been fated to meet, it will comes.

MR Turtle Been Hurt by Me

2010-07-25T22:38:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry Mr Turtle,

Becoz of my careless,

Turn in a wrong direction,

You get hurt in front of my house gate,

I'm sorry for it

I'm promise, I will take good care of you in future

I believe you are tough,

Just like a turtle,

Strong and tough,

Let me be with you

Whenever I needs you,

Promise me !!!

And trust me,

I will take care of you,

Until the end of the day

Mr Secret

2010-07-21T21:51:00.004+08:00

What Does Mr Secret Attracts Me?

Treat me Well

Talk Slowly and softly to me

Treat me better than others (From what I see can Feel)

Using my Dream Phone as his handphone (Apple iphone)

Know well my background

*** Actually he not really attracts me as well ***

What does Mr Secret dislike by Me?

His attitude

His perfume

*** I guess only this two matters ***

p/s :

Actually I dun really know what I'm currently writing now... I just wrote it for fun !!!

So guess who is it if you manage to find it out

Tips:

Someone who close to me since I'm start working

We enter a new environment in a same time

Find it out if u wanna know it !!!

Hand Pain

2010-07-16T20:53:00.003+08:00

What A Tiring day for me. Whole day, Doing The Same Things. Copy, Copy and Copy ~~~

The Whole Day, I'm only copying the service tax from the invoice to the record book.

Damn A lot of invoice to be recorded. I think around 300 +++ Invoices. I had taken half day to record 100 ++ invoice. Until My finger now, pain, no energy. There is a long time that I never have a such feelings before, hand pain resulting from copying. Its tiring.

Early in the morning, I felt like a ice room inside the office, first time ever, i wear jacket at this office. And after lunch, Suddenly I felt very hot and I had open the air cond in a lower temperature and max the fan. But I'm still feels hot and sweating someone. OMG !!! Is it a signal that I'm going to fall sick soon?

I should sick from the beginning but till now it still like that. My body not feelings well actually since the income tax period till now. I wish to sick. I'm crazy I guess. =)

Let me sick !!! I need sick and rest !!!! Wanna MC too !!! Let me sick plz !!!

2010-07-11T22:16:00.002+08:00

Everyone Did Say It needs time

Yea, I know, It Needs time

But Who's going to give me time?

I had run Out of time,

Wasted A lot of time

I don't wish to waste it anymore

I'm guess, I Had been fated to become a 'Protective Animal' in my life

No matter where I am, I will be protected by someone

Either directly or secretly, Who knows?

Bored with my current life...

Its Monday again tomorrow... Blue Monday ~~~

I Hate Monday... Hate Friday...

NO choice,

My equation in my life

No work = No money

No money = No enjoyment

So no matter how tough the road, I still will walk it

Just for the $$$$

I will 'hang' for it

Where The Wind Blow Over

2010-07-05T23:09:00.000+08:00

Its Monday again ~~~ What a bored day again !!! Early in the morning, with the sleepy mood @ office its really boring. Just one words can be describe BORING !!!

Early in the morning, checking those customer cheque where most of the cheque are written a large amount and the money does not belongs to me. Writing those cheque details its really tiring. Imagine, 100 +++ cheque in one morning. Until 'the special VIP coming' to office where he sitting beside my table.

He quite funny actually. Whenever he talks to me, I felt that I wanna laugh out loud. I don't know why I had such a feel actually. Today, he asked me to take almost 10 company files to him to audit. And these file are quite thick and heavy. As result, I walk in and out the store room I think more than 10 times. While he photostating those needed document from those file, the photostat machine its really noisy. The sound are extremely noisy, its like lorry pass by sound. I can't stand of it actually. My ears suffering for the whole morning. Pity for my ears /><\

Somethings happen make me feels guilty towards him. My ringtone actually was the same ringtone with him. Just my phone seldom rang and he didnt realize it. And today, my phone sudden rang, and he taught that was his phone ringing. I wanted to told him that my phone rang but he just like a rocket walk toward his place to take his phone. I'm sorry for it anyway. I guess, he going to change his ringtone. Maybe not. He not that kind of person i guess. After that incident, I had changed my ringtone due to the guiltiness that I feel.

Special incident happen again. first time ever, he helped me to take files to store and keep. Its really first time ever. I guess, he was in good mood today. He keep helping me. (wondering in dreamland again)

"Ooi, Priscilla, back to World now, Don't think too much !!! He was treating you as sister thats why he help you alot...."

Ya. I'm totally agree for it... He's my kor ma, should help me la... Kekekeke

My current work @ office after peak period,

Photostating, Filing, Recording, Filling Up Forms, Arrange payment, Calling Customer.

Thats All !!!

Bored day @ Office

2010-07-02T20:57:00.002+08:00

What A bored day @ office today

Peak period ended, nothing can be rush,

I guess, the following days, my task only filing, filing and filing !!!

Early in the morning been waked up by 'special smell' from 'someone' @ office

The 'smell' really too strong,

Until me and one of my colleague keep sneezing as our nose can't accept the 'smell'

Lucky, he went off 1 hour later

Otherwise, I will be suffering there as he sitting beside me.

He really a Young Master Attitude,

Bags and laptop put at office and ask his maid bring back home.

OMG ~!!!

I cant stand of it... His attitude, been child by his parents since he was young.

If he is my 'closer' friend, Maybe I will teach him,

"How to manage your entity"

Sien and bored day... Filing will be the half of my year work... Wondering whether there is so much things to be filing....

I had nothing to Say Anymore

2010-06-27T21:53:00.002+08:00

I'm extremely Moody today

1st, stupid Government Department have a bad service for it.

Don't promise me say it will be done today, Their service really bad, Ask more 1 question it just like taking they life away. I'm going to complain if they offered complain letter and the letter box there.

2nd, I can't manage to register my ACCA for July intake due to many many reasons. Financial, transportation, emotion and family matters. Due to all this matter, I have to delay my intake to next year January. No choice, nothing can be blame except myself.

3rd, I hate that my graduated University and College had cheated me for 1 year and promise that we get many exemption from that. As result, my college mate had phone to ACCA and they confirmed that our University did not submit any exemption for our final year examination. If they submit now, it only applicable for those taking the courses now. Not to the graduated student. So we might not get any exemption from that. If this case are true, I'm going to complain the college. Wasted our time and money.

4th things, my working area. It seems like I'm working in a 'jail' more than a office. Where ever I go, must get the permission from them. Even I go back home also need any permission from them. Hey boss, I'm your staff, not ur daughter or sons. I had my freedom too. I'm just like a boneka who moving around the office. I can feel that actually.

At the end, tears out from my eyes again... I feel like I'm love to cry. Since the day I'm start working till now, I had badly cry 3 times. 3 times... It doesn't looks like me. I'm not crying when I was studying and now I love to cry, even a small matter, I will shedding my tears out. I'm not as tough as last time. Wondered what's a powerful matters makes me become a crying baby.

Stress? Love? Family? or Low EQ?

Maybe of it are the true. As I grown up, I felt like I cant controlled my emotion. Keep unstable. Warm and cold all the time. I don't wish to shed anymore tears from now onwards...

Addicted

2010-06-25T22:10:00.002+08:00

Currently Addicted to Some Songs

Taylor Swift - Love Story

Collbie Caillat - Fallin' For You

Oh Gosh !!! These two song keep running in my mind. Even I had changed my ringtone to Fallin' For You. I'm addicted to these two songs.

Now I'm realise that Fallin' For You lyrics is meaningful. Its really suitable for those who loves someone and dont have enough courage to express it out. Its really suitable for this kind of person.

OMG !!! Its again, I'm listening it again and again in my music player !!! Can't stop listen for it !!!

Miscellaneous Again

2010-06-24T21:02:00.002+08:00

Recalling back memory for the whole week. Feel that I'm non-stop working.

My schedule as below:

Mon to Sat @ office

Sunday @ home

I guess, after the month of June, there is a Saturday for me. The month of July shouldn't need me anymore I guess. Yes!! I can claim OT for the longer working hour, but its tiring. I'm human anyway, not machine. (They are machine by the way, that's why they treating their staff like machine)

Refreshing back what my colleague told me. Yes, he treat me well, he treat me good, but did you guys think whats make him treat me good and well? Not because of the 'LOVE' matters. He might be been instructed by someone who asking him to treat me well. Who knows? Nobody I guess.

Misunderstanding and rumor spreading around the office. I'm bored with the rumor anyway. Situation become worsted after my dad called to office and ask for his HP number. OMG !!!

Try to think about it, maybe it for working purposes? You know, auditor, traveling all the time. Where got sitting @ office quietly? Guys, don't think too much of it. =)

Waiting for the last Saturday that I need to work. Final Saturday. After this month, no more Saturday working for me. HOOREY !!!! Cheer for me !!!!

I wan go shopping, go enjoying and watch movie. Since CNY till now, I never been shopping again. I still remember, the last time shopping was with my best buddy, Nicole buying cloth @ Kuchai Lama. After that, no more shopping life for me. -_-

Counting down every second and minutes ^^

Lets starts now !!!!

A Night With Them Again

2010-06-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

Yes!!! Is the night with them again. Its we again, Nicole, Joe, Justin and Priscilla. I think we had more than 4 month never been together outing again. The last outing we does is Chinese New Year. I still remember, the 'VIP' who played his badminton until makes our night activities (Sing K) cancelled.

We went to KLCC to watch Karate Kid which kinda nice movie. Thanks to Justin who went to fetch me at my house. Really thanks for it =)

On the way to Justin house, he had told me something and it really true and meant it. He told me that I'm not sure for my direction yet. Whoever treat me good a bit, I will start to think deep and deep and I know its really impossible will happen. He told me, last time experience still not enough to mature my mind. Maybe he's right.

As I mention in previous post, the special 'he' treat me good due to he know my real 'identity' and this could makes a misunderstanding to me. Maybe I really think too much of it. Is not maybe, is really. Btw, all clear now... I'm know what to do and what should do now.

I should concern trade to my work and study now. Its not a possible things, but there is nothing is impossible for me. I must learn how to increase my EQ. I'm a emotional person anyway.

I believe that fate will reach upon we needs it. I don need relationship now... Unless there is a person who express to me, maybe I will think of it. (Juz joking anyway) /^_^\

I'm Finally Get the Meaning Behind the actions !!!

2010-06-18T21:29:00.003+08:00

I'm finally know why does he treat me so well compare to other colleague. I'm really knew it now. Luckily I'm asking those question to him. I guess, if I never ask him forever, I will misunderstand it forever. He treat me well due to he know my 'real identity'. I guess, he was treating me as his sister like that. Hm... not a bad things. I got one more kor again =)

Maybe this kor and mei relationship is better for us. Kor always protect their Mei. So I guess, my entire other kor will protect me too =)

Hm... what a bored friday night. Staying at home and blogging. When I saw most of the secondary schoolmate was went to UK for 3 month final semester, I felt I had chosen a wrong college to study. From beginning, I should choose TARC and not to my current college now. I can felt the happiness and the joyfulness that they enjoying in Liverpool. Its really relaxing. When I their photo that snapped in UK, I wish I was there with them. But I knew, this day might not coming as I dun think I have a chance to travel to UK due to financial problems. Just forget about it Priscilla !!! You will never have a life like this.

Lately, I found out there is a nice song to be listen. I'm suddenly love this song alot. Maybe due to the ringtone that rang in our office, I had fall in love to this song again. Its really meaningful. Suitable for those who love the guy/girl but afraid will lost them once you told them this 3 words

'I LOVE YOU'

So guys and girls, if you really wanna express your heart sound to your loved one and never have a courage to do so, you might try to express it through song lyric.

Its a new way for expressing feelings and it works.

So try it if you dare.

***** It just a suggestion not a confirmation. Be aware of it *****

Too Sudden

2010-06-11T23:29:00.002+08:00

All happened in too sudden. Not in the right time, not to the right place. My heart was aches without reasons. Maybe I'm too naive, the way I'm thinking is too simple, too easy to guess.

Frankly say, this Saturday, I really don't want to go my cousin wedding dinner. I felt that whether we going or not going is the same case. It will end with the same ending, BORING !!!

This evening, I met my fren Meng Wai @ The Gardens to return back my touch and go card to me. And he told me something that funny. Meng Wai, frankly say, I wanna join you guys, but I can't overcome my emotion towards it. Yes, it had been a history years ago cases but, it still deep in my memory. I'm trying to avoid from seeing you guys again. To be honest, I dunno how to face and settle down this problem. Maybe I'm trying to avoid all the problem not to face it and solve it.

In another situation, I had stepped a deep leg to a deep situation. Sometimes I'm wondered whether I'm stupid or dummy. Maybe I'm really stupid, towards some situation that I really can't make any decision. Don't have any right to make any decision.

My life is just blurring around. Follow what to do, follow what to say. I just need to follow the instruction. No matter career, study, and even freedom. Sometimes I felt I wanna cry out loud, but it seem like no works. I told myself, crying and shedding tears is not a solution. Hence, tears will never out from my eyes.

Miserable feelings appear again in my heart, I can't differentiate whether its a right choice for me to continue my life here. All my friend around me are envy for me. But I had nothing to proud of it. I hate for being a boneka. I live for myself not others, but now, Its looks like I'm living for others, not myself.

Nobody will understand my feels and situation. I rather find a hardcore working environment rather than working in a area that full of mines and mini bomb. I'm afraid one day I will become a 'minced human meat' here. I'm afraid ~~~~

Sitting at home

2010-06-05T14:11:00.003+08:00

It had been a long time that I never been sitting at home during the weekend, SATURDAY. Since CNY till now, I was busy working OT in my office as we are rushing of tax. Frankly, since I started working in this company, I had learn quite alot of things. I had learn to do Form E, Form BE, Form B, Form P, and Form C & R. Hm.. Maybe this was an opportunity for me to learn new things? Or a disadvantages for me?

Kinda bored day for me. Now I'm really understand why those working adult love to hanging out rather than sitting at home. Sitting at home is really a bored activity. Yes, you can accompany ur parents, but not really at home. You can bring parents go out for shopping, eating, walking and even travelling.

Recalling back last week incident, I'm nearly accident while driving that day. Thinking back was an horrible things. Can't imagine for it. First time ever, I'm really scared until my body was sweating. I had never scare until that. I wanted to drive more actually, but no one is going out with me. Nobody accompany driving. Now I'm realize the loneliness that single adult will faced. Its really un-describable feels.

I'm hope there is someone for me. But I know that someone might not appear for me. Ish, forget about it. I had decide to choose this road, And I have to beers for it.

Yesterday, some funny things happen. Some jokes about our company 'young master' (which always give a nightmare for me) had been created. Its really a funny jokes until I can non-stop laughing for it. But frankly, his 'perfume' really uniques, I cant describe the smell as the smell was 'too special'. (I hope he wont know my blog and read about my post) Frankly say, I cannot 'tahan' his perfume smell la. Its toooooooo strong, until I cant breath sometimes. But, no choice, can't be I told him that we cannot 'tahan' ur perfume smell and ask him to change. Impossible right? I guess, I need to facing him everytime he come to audit the account and 'tahan' the perfume smell until I resign from this company. It lucky that he was not everyday in our office, or else, I guess, I'm dead.

Ok Stop talking about him. I'm afraid, he reading my post quietly as well.

~~~ Its time to rest ~~~

What happening actually?

2010-05-20T20:21:00.002+08:00

Miserable feelings back to me today. I feel like I'm just like a boneka who been arranged and planned everything for me. I cant know what exactly happening what is the exactly job and responsible for me in office.

She changed my lunch time to the earlier shift and this makes my miserable feeling occur. I feel I'm very suffer now. I don't really know what will happen the next day. There is no security for me as well.

For a normal firm, normally when the employer increased their staff salary, there will be a contact should be signed. But, here, there is no contract for me. It makes me feel insecure as there is no black and white proven document to insured myself. I can lost my job anytime.

I was thinking, is it a wise decision for me to enter this firm? I had get many advise from oldest person and they said it absolutely a great choices to enter. But why I can't feel anything good about this job? I feel insured towards my road ~~~~

And, my boss told me that disclose my salary and my position in this company. I'm afraid I will accidentely sound it out as I love to talk a lot... There is many issue that I could'nt talk with.. I need someone to share anyway, but there is nobody here for me... I just need to keep it as secret in my heart... As no one could be share with

泳儿 - 原来爱情那么难

2010-05-19T20:37:00.003+08:00

Feel bored?

Feel Emo?

Just watch this MV

Meaningful song lyric and MV

~~~ Enjoy it ~~~

泳儿 - 原来爱情那么难

作词:王雅君

作曲:李志源

为什么爱会下起雨来

为什么我们越走越散

为什么笑有点不自然

为什么我的爱有点不安

眼泪排山倒海再抵挡不了伤害

我们的爱结束在这个夜晚

春夏冬暖多需要有你的陪伴

此刻我一个人习惯孤单

爱最痛的呼喊是不能够再重来

多年后我却牢牢记在脑海

幸福再来我依然会充满期待

找回爱最初的幸福港湾

为什么爱会下起雨来

为什么我们越走越散

为什么笑有点不自然

为什么我的爱有点不安

眼泪排山倒海再抵挡不了伤害

我们的爱结束在这个夜晚

春夏冬暖多需要有你的陪伴

此刻我一个人习惯孤单

爱最痛的呼喊是不能够再重来

多年后我却牢牢记在脑海

幸福再来我依然会充满期待

找回爱最初的幸福港湾

眼泪排山倒海再抵挡不了伤害

我们的爱结束在这个夜晚

快乐太难太心酸

我才发现了孤单

原来爱情真那么难

原来爱情那么难

Sleepless @ Night

2010-05-16T21:52:00.002+08:00

Went back home at 3am yesterday,

Can't sleep for the whole night due to the hot weather,

Enjoying singing k @ Neway Puchong,

A luxury karaoke center... Totally different from others Neway,

Release all stress there by singing my favourite song,

丁当 - 我愛他 and 丁当 - 你为什么说谎

Such a good memorable night ~~~

Eat Dim Sum early in the morning 1am...

1st time ever eat sooooo early breakfast....

And went back home @ 3pm,

awake till the sky bright ~~~

I'm guess, I will turn to 'God' tomorrow morning as I'm nt sleeping for the whole night,

Eyes, dun be swelling tomorrow,

Or else, my colleagues will think 'negatively'

I'm guess, its time to me lay to my sweet sweet bed

~~ Nitez World ~~

OMG !!!

2010-05-14T21:39:00.003+08:00

OMG !!!

"He" appeared in my dreams again... Yes, is it. Is "he" again. And surprising me, this morning, 'he' really come to my company and audited the account. OMG !!! The dreams like becoming reality... I really cant believe it ~~~

And something unexpected happened, I almost felt down and lay down to him... OMG!!! lucky there is a 2cm space between us, or else, it will become a hit topic in my office... I dun wish this will happen, coz, I'm not really have a good impression to him. Maybe 'he' too rich and makes his attitude was like a children... Just like un-mature guys in my point of view ~~~

I'm not really get through with him, just sometimes, he ask me a question and I answer... thats all !!! Not more than that ~~~

Bad Dreams... ALL GO AWAY FROM ME !!! NO MORE DREAMS ABOUT "HIM" ANYMORE !!!!

Should I Answer Or Ignore?

2010-05-13T21:32:00.001+08:00

Should I answer it or Should I Ignore it?

Its running in my mind for few days this topic. Whenever they touched a topic that related to that 'particular matter' in office, I really don't know how to answer it.

I was wondered should I pretend I know it, or should I answer it that I don't know?

I was hard to become human at that moment. If I say yes, I was telling lies, If I say don't know, they sure wondered and ask many things. Human are complicated.

I'm hate that, 'he' doesn't care us at all, and push me to somewhere that I don't like to go. Just like the current job I'm working now, actually, I'm not really like to work here. Just 'he' forces me to here to work. Whenever my boos mention about 'him', I have to pretend that I know everything. Its hard for me to wearing mask and work. I dont know should I answer or pretend quiet... No idea for it ~~~

I Just Can Say, BYE !!!

2010-05-10T21:28:00.003+08:00

My colleague, leaving company today as she had take 5 days leave in a row. The whole week she was MC. Kinda sad case actually. I don't wish she's leaving as she brings a lot of joy and fun for us.

But this leaving maybe good for her and us. She felt she too stress and unhappy while working in this company. Frankly, the current company that I'm working right now are kinda complexity as their system are more to marionette style management. It only controlled by the owner and others can't be involved. We just can follow what they arrange for us. Maybe this style is good but have you think of your staff wealth? Did you really care of us? I guess there is one words...

NO NO NO !!!!

Working life is not easy as I taught. Its really tough and even tougher than my study time. I still remember, study will have more freedom compare to working environment. While you are working, every words you speak, every action you did, had been monitored by your employer. Once you speak wrong something, you will make your colleague in trouble. Now I'm realise that, working in a team are not easy especially cases like me. Its hard for me to act busy and make myself work slower, I'm used to motivated myself by working in a fast way. I'm really don't know I should follow what they said or just follow my own opinion. I'm afraid will lead them in trouble... I'm really afraid ~~~~

Wish is only a Dreams

2010-05-05T20:56:00.001+08:00

I wish I'm in relationship now. Get someone to share my taught with, get someone to talking with me, get someone to share my problem... I'm wish for it...

Wishing is easy, but hard to achieved. Where to find a guy who really understand and cares of me? I'm afraid to be in relationship, but I wish to be in relationship now ~~~~

When I see my friend are in relationship, I wish I can too.... But too bad, I can't manage to find it...

3 times, 3 times it happen and the wound in my heart still cant be stitched back...

I'm wonder who is gonna stitch back for me? I'm guess, NOBODY !!!!

Only I can stitch back myself....

End up with GOING

2010-05-03T20:45:00.002+08:00

As I mentioned in previous post, I'm not going to the BBQ on saturday night.

A miracle happen, I'm end up with going the BBQ after been advising by my friend

What he say are right, maybe I'm too conservative, stubborn, and too negative

Its not a negative issue after I get advise from him, he kinda good guy actually,

But he's 'not my cup of tea'. I guess, I'm not the cup of tea of him =)

forget about it.

Back to BBQ

Actually, I'm not planning to go due to certain reason.

First, I dun wan 'ma fan' ppl as I'm not driving to BROGA ~~~~

Second, I dun wish to see 'that particular person' (I guess u guys know who I'm mentioning)

Thirty, my acne gonna burst and my throat is drying ~~~~

Thats the reason that encourage me to not going

My heart aches when I saw them, I didn't talk any single non sense words with them.

Just talking seriously, like a stranger....

haiz... forget abt it.. I dun wish to see him anymore... I dun wish can see him again ~~~

Lets time cure my aches and sew the wound in my heart...

I'm believe, time will proven and cure everything ~~~~

All I'm needs now is time... not more than that ~~~

Gimme more time !!!!!!!!

Unexpected Feelings

2010-04-29T20:45:00.002+08:00

I was asking this few question to myself. Watch carefully ~~~

Am I stupid?

Due to my stupidness, I had made my life stupid

Because I'm stupid and lead me making a wrong decisions

Stupidness lead me make wrong decision and walk to a wrong bath

All happens because I'm STUPID ~~~~

No matter in what field, I'm consider as a loser....

Working, Love, Family, Career, Future....

Been cheated without any notice,

Been 'gambled' my future without my permission,

~~~ I'm moody now ~~~

No mood to go anywhere,

Sorry guys, I cant join U all BBQ this Saturday... I'm mood-less now.... gimme sometime to accept my truth towards my future...

...Nobody could understand my feelings now....

~~~ nobody nobody and nobody ~~~

Miscellaneous

2010-04-25T22:54:00.002+08:00

Just have a pillow talk with my two 'ji mui' (cantonese) at MSN and FB

Hm... I'm started to think back the "LOVE" topic

She asked me a simple question and these question make me takes a long time no answer it

Just a simple question~~~

It sound like this "What is ur requirement for ur BF?"

Hm... this question playing in my mind for a few minutes....

Not a very high requirement, as long as the guy taller than me, well educated is enough i guess.

For this moment, it only my current requirement, future, dunno yet ~~~

Its sudden play in my mind ~~~

Aiks... Dun think about it anymore... Time to bed ~~~

Feels been cheated

2010-04-23T23:23:00.002+08:00

Frankly expressing my feelings now... I feel been cheated by someone... Can't say been cheated, just that im emo-ing now ~~~

Just had a dinner with someone that I'm not really like to have dinner with... Because of 'that person' I had went to work in a company that I dislike, and to a company that arranged the dislike work for me...

I'm not really like to do tax actually... I know, tax is professional work, but, my aims after graduated from my degree is towards audit field... Not to taxation. I just discussed and think a lot of it. What he told me not really a bad things, but u can determine my future... I cannot take my future to repay kindness of someone... its too self fish.. u rather sacrifice my future instead of repay their goodness... ITS UNFAIR FOR ME !!!!

HAD U EVER THINK OF MY FEELINGS??? MY POINT OF VIEW ??? MY OPINION???

I just can asnwer with 1 words answer... NO... NEVER AT ALL ~~~

I feel that I had been used for it... I hate someone who doesn't care for me suddenly cares me alot... and comes with an objectives... and when I know this truth... my heart is just like a sharp knife stuck deep into my heart and hardly to pull out at all..

Its pain... shedding tears inside without tell me... bleeding and cant be cured...

I had nothing to say anymore... All my effort, my time and my future are wasted in this way... it doesn't make sense at all...

I'm not comparing the salary... i just comparing the qualification... if a normal graduated SPM holder can get the salary and post same as mine, for wat I wasted my time and money to study my stupid degree and get a stupid second upper result? FOR WAT??? ITS IT WORTH???

I just can say.... IT NOT WORTH AT ALL ~~~~

I'm started to feels my life is meaningless.... they arranged everything for me... FOR WAT I'M ALIVE FOR ??? JUST KILL ME BETTER>>>

MY LIFE JUST LIKE A BONEKA NOW ~~~ BEEN ARRANGED AND PLANNED FOR EVERYTHING

It will never ends... never and ever will reach the ends....

Pause Button in Life

2010-04-20T23:41:00.003+08:00

If there is a PAUSE button in life, will you press the button and PAUSE the moment right now?

I'm sure, if I ask 10 person, 9 of them are agree to press the button. Neither of me, I wish there is a PAUSE button available for me too. Having this button isn't a bad things, at lease you can stop the moment for a while time and enjoy it for a while more time. But, for some, the availability of this button isn't a good things for them. Happy moment always past in a wink eyes time, and the sad moment always past in whole life time. You will remember those unhappy moment more than happy moment that you having in your life. Anyone agrees? Yes, I'm agree for it...

So far, I still cant forget the moment I say the 3 words... The 3 words that I had sound out 6 month ago had make me phobia in these situation. I'm afraid to be hurt, I'm afraid to be in love again. But I'm wish to be in love, but I still cant do it ~~~

Having a single life isn't a bad things, at lease u free to go anywhere, just need to inform your parents where you going and going with who... but it feels lonely ~~~

Lately, I'm keep outing with my degree mate. 2 weeks non stop outing and back in the middle of night... its a quite enjoying life and we keep chit chatting... 1st time ever I had non stop chit chatting until a few hours time never felt thirsty at all. Hm... a good moment with them anyway...

Back to now, one of my online kor 'express' to me again... I had rejected him for more than 3 times I think. Kor, if u read my post, I'm frankly tell u, I'm not suitable for you, Trust me, You could find a better girl outside... Dun keep thinking of me... I'm not as good as you think... I cant be a good gf for you... Forget me ba ~~~~ I hope you understand it ~~~~

Middle of the night... Dunno y I feel hot... Keep sweating while blogging... Keep sweating while checking my fb... Maybe its timem~~~ Time to drop sick... Time to ends everything... Maybe now is the time... I can feel something wrong with my body... First time ever, my stomach pain for a few days... and it never recover at all... pain for a while, suffer for a whole day... Hope there is nothing for it ~~~

Happy Birthday Priscilla !!!!

2010-04-12T00:07:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to me !!!!

Well, such a memorable and wonderful birthday for me this year. Recalling back my last year birthday, I still remember, last year, I'm unable to celebrated my birthday with my colleges, friends and family as the following day of my birthday was my Diploma Convocation Day ~~~

Due to my last year birthday, there are many incident happen. Some lead to a happy moment and some leading to a sad and pain moment. I still remember, due to the convocation, our argument, and had lead to a sad ending at the end... And some happy moment will never last long... because of some person, I had decide to let off my studies and trying to take the attention of that 'person'. But at the end, nothing I had gain back... It just a credit transaction... Never debit at all ~~~

OK. Forgot about the past... Looking towards to the future ~~~

First of all, I wanna thanks to my beloved dummy sister, Polly who brought me a 'turtle tissue box' for my car accessories.... and she was the 1st person who wishes me HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!

Secondly, my lovely Daniel Kor, you are the 1st one who SMS me and wishes me... Thanks ya!!! Not only thanks for the wishes, but thanks for everything u had done to me... I'm appreciate it =)

I'm promise you, I try to overcome my fear in my heart... I'm promise ~~~

[I'm wondered whether he will read my post or not]

Following, i wanna thanks to all my entire buddy, sister and friends who wishes me in Facebook, through SMS and some even phone calling to me. Thanks for everything ~~~

Finally, I wanna thanks to my degree close buddy who celebrating birthday with me @ Shabu Shabu... Sharon, Nicole, Christine, Wallances, Hock Lai, thanks for everything =)

Wonderful and surprising birthday are always past in a wink eyes time... I cant believed that 'he' had called me during my birthday night ~~~ Frankly, I treated him as my normal friend now.. NO more extension than dat... (hopefully la, really no extend from dat)

I had made a wish during my birthday this year... Hopefully it will come true... I'm really hope for it... =)

Finally, I wanna wish myself, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! And I had brought a bag as my birthday present to myself =)

22 years old Priscilla are BORN !!!!!

Fear in my heart, will be disappear, I'm trying to do that...

~~~ Wish me luck ya ~~~

Truth are always right ~~~

2010-04-09T20:56:00.003+08:00

I had been crying for a whole night. I can't imagine... i had been cry for the WHOLE NIGHT !!!! Just imagine... it doesn't like me... As you know me, I wont be cry for so long ~~~ I'm not that kind of crying baby anyway... Recalling back my memory, since I had break up with my ex, I had cry once and then no more tears for me... Until now.. my tears is finally out. I was wondered, whether I should blame for it or thanks for it?

Its kinda interesting incident anyway.

1st, I never taught I will shed my tears on thursday night

2nd, I never taught that she saw me crying before I leaving.

3rd, I never taught she ask me go to her room once he reach office early in the friday morning

I'm really really touched when she say she had hurt me... I'm nearly crying that time... Recall back the moment, maybe she are right, I never ask for the confirmation and makes all the things in trouble. I should ask for it anyway...

Thursday night, I'm really crying the whole night... Cant sleep well, Cant eat well and cant live well. I never taught it gives me a big impact of it... Maybe she really wanna train me... Train me to become a future leader, train me to become a responsible person, and lead me to a better future....

While I'm crying, I'm think back of a buck of sad incident, and my tears keep shedding without my permission... LOL

Thinking back my love life, my study life and my stupid secretly loving someone life... I found that when a person are unhappy, everything is happy will become a sad moment.... I keep thinking back it.. my mind just like a flash player... all playing in on shot... and reach to the lately incident, I still crying... even more badly... haiz... Sometimes I wondered, whether I had stepped a wrong leg to a wrong situation... whether I had done something that I suppose not to do... or whether I had do something that made disagreement of everyone...

Tomorrow is my birthday, finally 22 years old. I should plan for my future... Sometimes I wondered, should I continue my study? Or should I remain my life now? Or should I have a aiming high position for future? I'm not clear for my direction now. I might need to seek advice from someone who older and experience to talk to...

SHOULD I GO FOR ACCA?

~~~This question playing in my mind all these while ~~~~

Sickness... Away From ME !!!!!

2010-04-04T22:30:00.002+08:00

I hate sickness, Always sick without reason... For a month, I had been flu for non-stop... At lease sneeze once a day... I hate it !!! My nose had been red due to sneeze the flu out from my nose...

Anything can cure it? I hate of being my life full of sickness.... Even I ate the flu medicine that will make me sleep for 12 hours doesn't work to me... ARGH !!!!

Hardly to survive if I keep continue with this situation ~~~

I wish I can change my lung and my nose as well... Born with nose allergy, allergic to dust which I always need to face the dust... Hate it !!!

Nothing I can be change since I was born with these sickness... It will follow me forever... Until my death... I'm afraid in future I will lost my taste on food too... As now I'm hardly to eat the food taste as well... I'm afraid... Really afraid...

Ish... Stop grumbling now !!! I dun wish to be a nanny soon... Keep grumbling !!!!

Sleep and have a nice dream tonight... I dun wan repeat the dreams yesterday... Such a terrible and horrible dream... But I guess the dreams it wont come true..

As I always said "never had a dream come true"

OK. Its time for bed... Wish me have a sweet dreams ya !!!

Horrible Dreams

2010-04-03T21:29:00.000+08:00

OMG !!! OMG !!! OMG !!!

I cant believe it that I had a horrible dream last few day...

I cant imagine what will happen if in real life the dreams are really come true...

ARGH !!!! Impossible...

I cant explain why these situation will appear in my dreams

And it really a impossible incident...

Ish... Forget about the dreams that makes my life miserable...

As saying goes on "NEVER HAD A DREAMS COME TRUE"

I'm believing in this phrase...

~~~~ You Can Dream, But Your Dream Might wont Come True ~~~~

Its true anyway....

...I'm believe it...

Love OR Crush?

2010-03-27T21:41:00.006+08:00

Have you ever wondered what's the different between love and crush? Some people might think it might be a same meaning of it. But it actually not. Its totally a different words and meaning.

According to Cambridge Dictionary, it defined love

"to like another adult very much and be romantically and sexually attracted to them, or to have strong feelings of liking a friend or person in your family"

And crush was defined as

"a strong but temporary feeling of liking someone"

I had read some article regarding to this two words... It state clearly thats a big different between this two phrase.... Have a look on this article

Love - this is an emotion and a choice. It is something that is unconditional under all circumstances and never fails, lies or cheats. It is faithful through all life and is there every second of every day. It is something sacred. Love is different from a crush because not only is it feeling that you want to be with the person and how much you like them, but it is the choice as well. For example when you are so mad at the person you could almost leave them you CHOOSE to stay because they are meant for you and you are meant for them. You LOVE them ! Its choosing everyday to be faithful and no matter how mad, upset or bad circumstance comes up that you will spend the rest of your life with them. Love also must be both of you. You cannot stay in love with a person who does not love you back. Love is meant for two.

Crush - this is simply just thinking someones pretty, hot or anything that you find attractive and having emotions for the person. This is what children or people who are not serious about marriage etc.. Experience. Maybe what you would have had in school as a young child before you knew about commitment.

Clear now? I guess not... Just have a deep think of it... Whether is a crush or love feel towards them... Grab the opportunity as soon as possible... Once it go, you will regret for it... Just wait for the cupid arrow shoot to who and it will become your future partner... GOD BLESS YOU!!! Just leave it to fate...

Finally Out !!!

2010-03-25T22:38:00.006+08:00

Result is finally out !!!!

I can't imagine this was my result... The WORST result in my life

I can't accept this result anyway...

I had put so much effort, so much time and

sacrifice almost all my life in terms to get a better result,

But, its proven, what I had done, its to repay with it.

When I think back, I'm kinda stupid,

I had wasted alot time to a stupid matter and a stupid ppl...

That person really ruined my life...

And I help it alot, it didnt repay with anything, even a THANK YOU !!!!

I will not never and ever become a good person again....

I must learn to become a bad person...

Learn to SAY NO to others...

You know, I'm a type of person who always YES YES YES and YES

Whenever there needs a help, there will be me...

When I think back the past,

I felt that I'm really stupid...

I had helped 'that person' alot and

"that person" had hurt me the most deep inside my heart

I guess most of the ppl knew who is it

I hate it anyway, but can't blame it too..

I should blame myself for not aware of it..

I shouldn't put too much time to the something that it will no realize...

Degree result had burned... No more degree for me...

I had a friend who advise me not thinking so,

But its really a big SHOCK to me...

I cant accept it anyway... Maybe this my life...

Fated to be ruined by love, family and money matters in one shot...

I felt that my life getting harder and harder once I grew up...

I feel that I'm too naive..

Its really naive... naive in thinking, behavior and expressing...

Perhaps naive will lead a better life for me?

Who knows? Nobody ~~~~

Well, maybe this was my unique characteristic?

Hm... I cant know it anyway... Think about it tonight...

Its time for me to bed and turn to piggy

~~~ Say goodbye today ~~~

Walking around the office ~~~

2010-03-22T21:46:00.002+08:00

One month... Its finally one month I been working in my company. I'm keep walking at office today... Walk non-stop... Keep walking here and there... taking file, printing file, photostating, finding file for auditor... ish... I just know I keep walking here and there...

Just found something interesting today... I found dat the auditor really funny today. He just act like his house today... had u ever see an auditor sitting an office chair with the leg upper the chair? Its first time ever I saw it... HE really taught he was at his house... (although this company is really open by his family)

Kinda funny situation... Humors are around the office... Maybe some of my colleague saw my post will knew the rumors, well, lets be a secret... Internally office secret =)

Watching a few final episod of 下一站，幸福.... What a touching movie.... make me almost crying while watching... If there is a guy like 花拓也 who secretly love and protected the loves one appear in my life... It should be a wonderful life for me... but i knew it wont happen in reality... Only in drama it appear...

STOP DREAMING PRISCILLA !!!!

Nothing can be argue anymore

2010-03-21T21:49:00.005+08:00

I'm had been waiting for this day for a long time period. Yes is it !!! It finally comes... And it finally arrive and I'm finally have to accept the truth...

Its comes too sudden until I cant really know what's really happening. Exactly what you guys thinking, Yes is it... IS WHAT YOU THINKING NOW !!!!

Wondered what rubbish I'm talking right now? Its the rubbish that exactly you looking and thinking now.... Human mind are complicated, We cant know what are exactly another person mind are consist of... Even a couple, we cant exactly know what are ur partner are thinking in their mind.... Just like me, I cant read others mind unless they told me what their needs and wants and I will try my best to help them if I manage to give a hand to them...

Struggling with my current feelings now... RESULT OUT !!!! Finally it out.... Its comes too sudden until I didnt realize it really out.... I hate you guys la... Nobody told me result out... Except my 'hou ji mui', nicole. She sms me and told me result was out... Thanks Nicole anyway =)

Not a result that I want, all marks caught in the average of my own passing rate.... And I had lost my confident towards the last subject which it haven release yet... And my family knew my result... my parents wont bother me so much, but my bro.. I afraid will makes him disappointed... Sorry brother... I guess I really make you disappointed this time... I'm not getting a good result in my degree...

I'm afraid that my Audit and Assurance paper cant be exempted from the ACCA department as I get lower than 60 marks in exam coz the ACCA requirement is 60 marks for passing rate... OMG !!! I'm regret for not studying hard in the previous time... I'm really regret... I should learn from ants who really working hard towards their future.... I really have to learn from them...

2010-03-16T20:44:00.003+08:00

Am I walking towards to a right path of my life?

Are my decision will hurting anyone?

Its my decision that I going to made soon will ruined up everyone?

Does everyone will support towards my decision?

These few question playing in my mind after the day that I knew the truth. I cant deny that I really had to made my choice to clearer up my mind. I cant controlled my mind to stop thinking of it... It automatically fly up to my mind whenever I had a free time, just like now... I cant stop thinking of it...

I wish I could shedding my tears out, but I cant shed it out... As he told me, the reason that you couldn't shed out ur tears is because u regret for the decision, not being hurt by someone else...

Maybe what he said are correct, for my current situation, nothing for me to be shedding tears... Nothing for me to be sad for...

I hope that I could sitting alone in a silent and peace place to clear my mind and have a deep thinking of it...

Perhaps time could proven everything... Maybe i should say, my current condition is just like my friend, Justin who involve in this situation before... he given me a analytical of these matters... Thanks to him anyway... =)

Searching for my soul back to my body........

Its fine ~ I dont care about it ~

2010-03-14T21:52:00.002+08:00

Kinda lazy lately...

Dont feel wanna blogging actually,

But, I can see everything today...

I really can see it...

I cant trust you anymore...

Something its really make me fade up...

I will never put hope on you again...

ish... ignore about it !!!

Went to see Chinese traditional Dr today,

As most of my friend and relative call me 'medic pot'

Which means a person always sick in a short period,

Start from tomorrow, no fried things, no spicy thing and no cold food for me,

What a suffering week...

without those food, its equal to end of my day...

Working life begin tomorrow,

I need to concerntrade to my work...

No more thinking those that it will never happen matters,

No more dreaming about the things that it will never come true...

Looking towards to my career better.

I heard from my degree classmate that result will release tomorrow.

Kinda nervous to know it... But i try to control myself to not so fast knew it...

I will check the portal on Tuesday night if I'm available at home...

Actually, I don't really believe that result come out so soon...

its too early... so i just put 50% hope on it...

Anyway, nothing to be blogged,

Moody day... dreamy day... maybe missing 'someone' too much...

I wish you are in same feeling with me...

I'm not sure whether the matters you told me are true or false,

But i hope its true and not lying me...

I hate those ppl lying me... I will hate them forever... I really meant it..

When you read my post, hopefully u can get my meaning on it...

Tuesday Blue ~~~~

2010-03-09T21:04:00.002+08:00

Wonderful experience I had gain today,

I never expected it will happen to me,

Did you guys know?

Today, I had wrote about at lease 100+++ cheque I think...

My hand is kinda painful now...

Tired to tearing slip...

Tired of failing client document,

Tired of stapler client cheque and slip together....

Tired of everything.... phew

Something funny happen in office today...

There comes an auditor to our firm...

And these is special auditor...

The auditor was the 'son of the boss'

OMG !!! OMG !!! OMG !!!

I never realise it... the whole firm staff knew it except me...

I felt I'm quite dummy...

Everyone knew it except me...

And I know that is our boss son from my boss too..

SWT !!!!

I cant imagine it how stupid I am...

Maybe I'm really that dummy...

I'm look stupid all the time...

where ever, whenever and whatever...

Do I really look stupid actually? Tell me the truth... I dun mind u say me stupid... Just tell me the truth...

4 day in a row

2010-03-07T21:31:00.003+08:00

As my previous post mentioned, I had meet a guy who are close to me in MapleLand.

Now, I can consider him as 'special friend' with me... All started with a warm hug from him towards me.. This warm hug had gimme a big impression towards him...

4 days in a row... Wed, Thurs, Fri, Sat... 4 days in a row.... Believe it? It doesn't looks like me right? Hm... I'm wonder too whether is my real person... I can't imagine, I had went out in 4 days in row... Maybe there is a 'power' to pushing me do so ~~~

Wonderful 4 days experiences... I dunno how to explain abt it... And I dun wish to explaining anyway. Working life making my life become a busy life... I cant imagine that I'm a newbie in the company need to carry back work and work it from home... =.="

But its a good things for me... this work from home and lead me to make more money... it counted as OT claiming... Wakakakaka... The more hour i work, the more claiming i can do =)

Anyway, kinda enjoying my current life... although there is unclear on some matter, but as long as it current issue, I should enjoy it...

'Enjoy the life max before u regret'

(...Thats the phrase I learn lately... )

I cant confirm whether its true or fake

2010-03-05T00:26:00.002+08:00

2 days, it happen 2 days in a row. Can be said, it happen too sudden or it happen too happening. I really cant make it sure whether I did a wrong or correct move.

It happen like this. I had meet a guy who I was always treat him as kor kor all these while. If u guys read a a few previous previous post, I had meet him during CNY that time. And now, we get closer closer and closer.

I really treat him as kor for the beginning. But, something happen really makes me feel it doesnt make me treat him as kor again. The feels that occur in my heart is kinda weird. I cant differentiate it whether it was 'that' kind of feelings or family feelings. It complicated.

I can feel a warm hug from him towards me... and he did try to mention about it. And before he leaves previous day, I can feel his heart was crying. And my heart was crying too.... the feels like... I never had before this kind of feeling. I really cant described it.

And today, we went out again... And we had done something more than expected. I scare I will jump to this crater and never been up again...

Dont worry guys, not the things that u thinking. Please think positively, I knew Malaysian loves to think negative but plz... think positively in this case...

ARGH !!! Dun wan think so much la... Just let to fate ba.... If it belongs to me, it sure will back to me... I believe this theory...

But My mind keep repeating abt him... OMG!!! I need to settle it out... Can i pause my mind for a while? I guess, it is impossible to did it so.... haizzzzzzzz

What a BAD DAY !!!

2010-03-02T20:44:00.002+08:00

What a bad day for me...

Listen to me... let me grumble for a while...

Listen carefully.... Listen Carefully....

I mention again.... LISTEN CAREFULLY !!!!

i felt down in company today !!!!

What a terrible cases...

Once I felt down, my colleague told me something make me wanna laugh....

She told me 'you are not the 1st one who felt down. Most of us felt down before'

LOL

Its really funny when I heard it....

As result, my waist now felt a bit pain and aches...

I guess nothing happen ba...

I'm sure nothing. Take a good rest and will be better tomorrow.

Ish... forget about it... but my butt quite pain a bit...

Lucky I still can sit to chair...

ish... forget about it...

I had secretly on9 to fb in office today...

Quite a challenging activity,

But I guess, there is no 2nd time for me again...

Nvm, just forget it... hahaha

Nothing can be blog today...

Thats all

~~~ the end ~~~

Its time to close it

2010-02-28T22:20:00.000+08:00

Its time to close the 'private blog'

I guess there is nobody know abt it...

I'm gonna close it secretly since I had create it secretly

Its Chinese Valentine today,

I'm here alone to wrote this post,

Nothing to be worry,

Nothing to be fear,

I'm guess my personality had scared off the guy away...

I just having a conversation with one of my on9 friend,

And he said, my personality is hard to find true love in my life,

Maybe he are right,

I'm a quite stubborn person,

Always follow my own style to do my own things,

Any problem save in my heart,

Never sound out the problem that I having now,

Never trust a person 100%

And my friend said to me,

At the end 'xin ku de shi ni'

And now, I really understand what he meant'

I really very 'xin ku'

I don't know what happen to me until these things ruin my mind,

I wish I could forget everything about it..

If everything could be erased after crying out,

Thats a great solution,

Just like this song, sang by 梁文音 which titled 哭过就好了

But I know, That's IMPOSSIBLE...

Nothing will be changed if u cry out loud...

So Its better for me to keep in and not to let out...

Keeping will make me more secure,

I'm nt a good explainer,

I cant explain well the things that I trouble with,

Maybe this my personality,

I cant express up my self...

Can't really release myself...

Ok. forget about it...

its time for me to close down de 'private blog'

That available in one of my link in my current blog,

For those who read it before,

I guess, U will never find it after today...

SAY GOODBYE TO IT !!!!!

我以為 - 品冠

2010-02-27T22:26:00.002+08:00

I love this song alot alot... until 101% in my life.... it totally sound out my feeling, and the MV, it really touching..... And if you had watched the Taiwanese Drama that related to this song, its really touching, let have a look on the MV and the lyrics....

妳曾說不想有天讓我知道
妳對他　有那麼好
妳說會懂我的失落
不是靠寬容就能夠解脫

我以為我出現的時候剛好
妳和他　正說要分開
我以為妳　己對他不再期待
不縱容他　再給妳傷害

我以為我的溫柔
能給妳整個宇宙
我以為我能全力
填滿妳感情的缺口
專心陪在妳左右
彌補他一切的錯
也許我太過天真
以為奇蹟會發生

我以為終究妳會慢慢明白
他的心已不在妳身上
我的關心妳依然無動於衷
我的以為只是我以為

我以為我的溫柔
能給妳整個宇宙
我以為我能全力
填滿妳感情的缺口
專心陪在妳左右
彌補他一切的錯
也許我太過天真
以為奇蹟會發生

他讓妳紅了眼眶
妳卻還笑著原諒
原來妳早就想好
妳要留在誰的身旁
我以為我夠堅強
卻一天天的失望
少給我一點希望
希望就不是奢望

我以為我的溫柔
能給妳整個宇宙
我以為我能全力
填滿妳感情的缺口
專心陪在妳左右
彌補他一切的錯
也許我太過天真
以為奇蹟會發生

他讓妳紅了眼眶
妳卻還笑著原諒
原來妳早就想好
妳要留在誰的身旁
我以為我夠堅強
卻輸得那麼絕望
少給我一點希望
希望就不是奢望

7th Day of CNY

2010-02-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

7th day of CNY is known as 'yan yat' meaning that human days... It consider as everyone birthday today... Firstly, I wanna join nicole, wai thiam, Justin and kaka to sing k and eat steamboat @ Justin house. Unfortunely, something happen. My family rules... "7th day of CNY must stay at home and eat reunion rice and 'lou sang'.." I cant join them... T_T

Due to this matter, I had missed a great dramatical reaction within them... I never taught he had this courage to explain everythings.... I really proud of you !!! I really meant it !!!!

As result, I need to stay at home and do nothing there... In the same time, my friend had called me to go out for a lunch... And I had follow him for lunch and had a short walk at one of the KL shopping center... Kinda a good day and time... And he had done something and these leaves me a hard core memory of it... Due to that incident, I cant stop to not thinking of it... It keep playing in my mind... over over and over... I really cant differentiate whether it is a good things or a bad things.

ARGH !!!! Stop Priscilla, I remind myself... Dont think about it... I must learn to forget it... forget everything....

6th Day of CNY in Year 2010

2010-02-19T20:37:00.001+08:00

Cant really remember what happen today... Oh ya. Remembered now. I had a date with my online maple kor. I used to call him Daniel Kor... Hm... Kinda good looking boy... this appearance doesn't look like his age... Fair skin... Skinny... Not a very tall guy (as all my friend all so tall... much more taller than me.. ><) I just can say, its BINGO!!!!

We had went to watch a movie ... Watched a movie called "TRUE LEGEND" which is kinda horrible movie... Its too cruel and horror.... Scared me the while the movie was showing....

Nothing special happen... After all, he fetch me back... and sudden he told me... "you are the 1st girl who sitting in my new car". I was surprising and on the spot, I wanna jump down from his car.... Btw, he kinda a good driver... Drive in a slow speed... nt like me... always over speed... so guys... dun sit my car if u didnt brought any insurance yet...

Polly Birthday

2010-02-18T21:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Polly

(my beloved dummy sister which stay with me for 17 years)

Hm.... We had held a Steamboat Dinner @ my house as her celebration

While waiting my bro back from work,

we had prepared these steamboat food as dinner tonight

Here the steamboat food for today dinner

Alot of vegetable, fishball, noodle and a pot of chicken soup

Unfortunely, we cant manage to finish up all the food...

We had quietly brought a cake for this dummy sister... thanks to MIKA who brought this cake from bread story... It look delicious.... YUMMY YUMMY !!!!

OMG!!! Now I realise dat the whole CNY I'm only EAT EAT and EAT!!!!

NON STOP EATING!!!!

I should keep fit and less eating from today onwards....

YES!!! STOP EATING !!!

~~~~~ JUNK FOOD, AWAY FROM ME ~~~~~

4th Day of CNY

2010-02-17T20:56:00.001+08:00

4th day of CNY,

Went out with college fren to watch 72 tenants of prosperity @ Leisure Mall

1st time ever, I stepped my leg to Leisure Mall,

It not as bad as my family described,

Quite a good experience,

My fren, Kaka, Had drive his car until a high speed car,

Scared me and Meng Wai who was sitting inside his car,

Meng Wai said, sit more often his car will less more ages... LOL

What a nice joke...

72 tenants of prosperity kinda nice movie...

A lot of leng zai and leng lui inside...

Hm... first time ever in cinema I never felt cold,

Maybe too pack...

After movie back home...

Thats all for today...

~~~~ Sleeping like a pig at night ~~~~

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3rd day of CNY

2010-02-17T02:33:00.000+08:00

My schedule today :

7.00 am - wake up in the early morning

7.30 am - go out buy newspaper

8.00 am - reach home and wake up my lovely bro and sister

8.45 am - went to drink morning tea with my grandpa and my aunt and uncle @ Jalan Kuchai Lama, one of the coffee shop and I had ate a stomach pig noodle... what a spicy black pepper noodle...

10.30 am - went to my uncle house to 'bai nian' and my bro had been forces to drink beer, and end up the beer inside my stomach....

12.00 am - went to my aunt house, and sit for couple minute... den my fren arrive to my house to bai nian, so we take this opportunity to leave there....

12.30 pm - nicole, wai thiam and meng wai arrive, and they need to wait at my houes gate due to i was rushing back from kuchai lama... make them waiting at in front of gate.... pai seh pai seh

3.30 pm - i had followed them to Broga (nicole and wai thiam hometown) and stay there for a couple hour.... can be said, at Broga, I can feel the freedom of my life... can go where ever I wan, a peaceful place which surrounded by green tree and blue sky. First time ever, I had ride a motor, such a wonderful experience... Its proven I'm really a true KL girl.... LOL

11.00pm - actually we planned to sing k at this time, the bastard wai thiam, play badminton until forgetted the timing... make me and meng wai suffer there.... at the end, he come and fetch me go back to KL...

12.30 am - wai thiam, kaka, and meng wai, fetch me back to kl 'sun bin' go old town drink tea... we had talk alot there.... alot of secret.... I dont know whether I had done a correct decision, But i didnt tell them, I just mentioned... notice this word... MENTION ~~~~

2.20 am - reach home finally... what a tiring day... Broga one day trippppp..... Sleep like a pig at night....

2nd Day of CNY 2010

2010-02-15T23:57:00.001+08:00

2nd Day of CNY is slightly better than the 1st day of CNY. At lease NO NEED stay in the hot OVEN in my hometown, Pekan Ijok, Selangor.

My family had went to my grandpa house at Jalan Kuchai Lama on 10.30am. Unfortunely, my lovely grandpa had went to somewhere else... (dunno where he go without informing anyone)

Therefore, my bro decide to went to midvalley for a short shopping season. And we had went to Jusco Hypermarket to buy some CNY stuff since we didnt brought it earlier... Later on, we had a lunch at PIZZA HUT ~~~~ And I foot the bill ~~~~

LION DANCE ~~~~ We saw lion dance there... and my sis say, the guy who holding the lion head look familiar... She said the guy are my secondary school ex student... Hm... I have a bad memory... I cant even know who is he.... Maybe I'm really old

Later on, we try our luck back to my grandpa house see whether he is at home. Lucky, he finally back home, and we go in 'bai nian'. A quarrel started once my aunt come.... Haiz... this year CNY just like a war... Quarrel war.... end up with my uncle come and everything settle then...

Dinner, yesterday dinner same with today dinner... my house is a weird family, other family love to grab all the dishes that available in table, and we... just leave there and no one eating.. even 1/4 chicken we can eat for 3 meals... IMAGINE.. How ungreedy of us...

After dinner, we had went to DONG ZEN TEMPLE

This year Dong Zen Temple, the theme was tiger as this year was the tiger year... From my yearly visited to this temple, this year decor was not as nice as last year deco... last year nicer...

Here some of the picture captured from there ~~~

The tiger, with the theme of 1 Malaysia as the tiget holding the Malaysia Flag... and the 3 tiger below was represent the 3 races in Malaysia, Malay, Chinese and Indian

My dummy sister and me.... I look weird weird in this photo... Due to too tired...

The three goods... for my entire blog reader, if u gt watch Beyond the Realm of Conscience, (宮心計), one of the actress who named 劉三好 always mention this words....

Study Study... Human are advised to study more to improve ourselves....

The pretty deer...

The unique things for the year... The balloon wheel... First time ever it built here...

Hm... a tiring day for me... first time ever, my timing just like arranged and everything packed... Jammed for 2 hour from Klang to Bukit Jalil...

Reach home, lay on bed and sleep until the morning.... What a wonderful sleeping night ~~~~

I Hate to live in these life ~~~

2010-02-14T22:22:00.000+08:00

First day of CNY should be a happy day for everyone. Neither of me. I'm felt happy at the beginning. As usual, we went back to my dad hometown at Pekan Ijok where is something 'ulu-ulu' place as family member gathering. Well, Its really unforgetable memory at there. First time ever, I had received a RM500 ang pow from 'someone' else. In this 10 years time I think, he never went back to hometown before until today, He sudden went back and give me a big ang pow. I'm wondered what actually he thinking. It sound like giving me money to corruption me... Its really looks like this meaning...

I had him again, and i guess he drunk. He started to talk non sense, and "she" at there too... I had no choice, since I had promised to my family, I had to be nice to them. Actually, in my inner heart world, I'm kinda hate them. Hate them for destroyed my happiness, Hate them for make me turn to cant trusted anyone, hate them for hurt us so much, hate them for arranged for me after I graduated where to work and hate them for everything. I'm totally dislike them... Whenever I see them, my heart will feel uncomfortable. I dont wish to see them anymore, even once in a year.

Its a tiring day for me. While the night still young, I had went to my lovely bed and sleep there. Unfortunely, my beloved doggy, keep barking at night until I cant sleep well... 3 month passed, And I still cant accepting the truth, I really cant accept it.... 20 years passed, why there sudden a changes? I hate it so much... I cant do anything to change it ~~~~

ARGH!!! Stop grumbling Priscilla !!!

Well, Fisrt day of CNY should be a happy day for everyone. Here, my wishes to all my blog reader, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!! May this tiger year brings a lot of joy, fun and prosperity to ur life... Eat healthy, living healthy, stay healthy ~~~

Oh ya !!! Forgotted... Its Valentine Day tooo ~~~~

Happy Valentine for all ~~~~ ( No valentine for me this year >< )

~~~ I'm here to wish, Happy CNY and Happy Valentine ~~~

Good Days !!!!

2010-02-11T01:38:00.000+08:00

A wonderful memory leaves to me today. Usually it doesn't like me. For my entire blog reader, you guys know that I'm not really love to sing k. But today, I had went to sing k with my uni-mate and it leaves me a wonderful memory.

First time ever, I sing k in so happy mood. I can't deny that I dont have a good mood early in the morning due to the incident yesterday. I'm almost cried this morning and I told myself I should not cry to this stupid matter. Hm... So I had followed them to sing k.

Kinda bad luck today. I need to go back college today to pass my passport photo to the degree admin. Unfortunely, the admin are having lunch and back on 2.30pm. OMG!!! I cant wait for 2.30pm as I had promised them to sing k on 2pm. So I went to sg wang greenbox later.

Hm... I had learn to express today. Express out my problem and get opinion form others. I felt that expressing out the problem will be feel better although they cant help me on anything.

Something surprising me today. I never taught that they are 'sing k king'. They so pro... I cant imagine, their voice, are so AMAZING !!! (especially the person who had the biggest and louder voice among all, no need mic also can overcome our voice, you know ur ownself)

Its really amazing. After sing k, we went to eat steamboat. Hoi Tong again... wonderful steamboat meal... But I had to decrease my weight again. ><>

We talk alot of things there.. What ever related we will talk for it. And I had asked a question to them. The question sound like this "what is ur first impression when u saw me for the 1st time?"

They have a same answer, "this girl look like very 'cham' (cantonese)" LOL. When i heard it, i really wan to laugh out... i really look like dat meh? Gimme so opinion for it...

Is it my problem?

2010-02-05T22:08:00.004+08:00

Am I causes all the problem all these while? I was asking this question to myself today.

I was wondered, whether I really should walk this road... I really think back for it today.

I felt I'm stupid.... really stupid... I cant accept myself had done such a stupid decision.

"its too late to regret" I told myself....

Nothing can be change the fact....

Boomerang, Boomerang, Boomerang... All I had done and face by me alone...

Nothing to be miss after this...

I wish I would never see it again...

Its it my fault anyway?

I had a shopping day with my uni-mate,

And something happen then... A question had created a topic about me ~~~

I really wondered whether it really my problem or others ~~~

Maybe you guys are right... I'm afraid to face the truth...

Afraid to hurt myself, Afraid of sadness and Afraid of tears....

I wanna shed my tears out from my heart but I dont have the courage to do it....

If shedding tears could recover all the problem, I'm rather the tears coming out from my eyes...

But it could be impossible to happen to it...

I always told myself, nothing is impossible,

But this time, its really impossible for me to not think of it...

I cant control myself for not thinking of it...

I really can't... too many things flying in my mind...

I had been use the word of busy study for the past few month for not thinking of it...

But now, I had a lot of free time to think of it...

Its lucky for not starting at the beginning,

Never start, never break and never pain,

It might a good things for it....

Now I'm only realize that mentally torturing is the worst case among all the torture that available...

Its hardly to overcome the mental problem.... I'm finally have the chance to experience it...

Its really pain and the wound will keep growing inside...

Darkness.... I hate you !!!

I cant see light now... surrounded by the darkness everywhere...

It just like a never end tunnel... never and ever reach the end ~~~

Polly And Priscilla

2010-02-04T02:08:00.001+08:00

Wondered who is Polly? Well, Polly is my housemate, room-mate and FB-mate.... LOL

For entire blog reader who have my FB, you guys sure know who is Polly anyway...

Here some of the stupid photo we capture.... does we look alike? Well, I dont think so.... How about you guys?

Dummy Stupid Photo Take 1

Dummy Stupid Photo Take 2

Hehehe.... I look like female ghost right? Hm... my bro said i look like it.... ><

Anyway, I quite satisfied with my new hair style...

New style = new life

....wanna start a new life right now....

...Forget the pass, look on future...

...I knew I can do it...

... And I believe, time will proven everything...

... Just wait the time erase up my pass...

... look towards for it...

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Starting or Ending?

2010-02-03T13:59:00.004+08:00

Its a beginning or ending actually?

I'm wondered whether this will continue for how long...

I cant manage to carry it anymore...

Arguing, mentally fighting are really tiring for me...

Each time we met, will end with a horrible ending...

I don't wish to see it anymore...

Sometimes, I'm wondered,

Why did I grown up in such a family?

I have to answer myself....

I had no choice to choose who I'm going to 'family' with...

I hate for 'wearing mask' each time I met them...

I hate for being untrue all the time...

I hate for those always prepare my future without let me decide for it...

I hate for seeing that situation again...

I hate that I need to face them with a mask...

I hate everything from there...

My hateness will lead to the bigger revenge in my life...

Not even to me... to all my entire 'member' in my house...

Especially, the one who live beside my room...

I try to remind myself,

forget the hate and revenge,

And accept the truth....

Its hardly for me to accept...

I cant even not think of it...

2 week passed, I still cant forget about it...

These stupid matter had bother me for a while time...

It hardly to let go, but I had to let it go...

Now I just can see a piece of darkness in my eyes

I cant found the moon in the darkness,

Maybe these moon will brings a new hope to me...

But, hope will lead disappointed to me...

I dont hope to see anymore moon in my life...

Away from me !!!!

Genting Trip (27 to 28 Jan 2010) - Photo

2010-01-31T01:16:00.007+08:00

Some of the picture capture in Genting Highlands and these 15 picture are consider the nicer and clearer picture among all the picture.

Family Photo Take 1

Arrival in Genting First World Lobby Hotel. While waiting for the room, we sitting at lobby and waiting for them to register. 12 of us are take bus from puduraya to Genting early in the morning.... around 9.30am. Due to the cable car are under maintenance, the bus are one way through up the hill.... when reach top of the hil... some of them are feeling dizzy and quickly find toilet... LOL

Another picture taken during the waiting for room session...

Steamboat dinner @ RIA Apartment.... such a nice steamboat in a cold weather....

Yummy Yummy.... different types of ball... see dat ah lai face... so fierce.... just like wanna eat us up... ><

Picture taken without my permission... need to ask for permission fess...

Sharon, me and wallances... picture taken @ first world lobby

Sara, Sharon, me and Wallances...

Christine, me, Sharon and Ming... I'm the shortest among all... T_T

Lai, me, Sharon, Ming and Wallances.... see that ah lai... I'm look weird while standing beside him... ><

Our supper... cakes... buy 7 cakes while walking to casino.... 50% on all selected item... therefore we brought 7 cakes and ate inside our hotel room and use the bed as table... LOL

Wakakakaka.... Ah lai, finally, I'm taller than you... kekekekeke

Sara and me... such a nice girl... first time ever get along with her... =)

Wallances and Me... he looks weird when wearing this shirt... looks like.... dun wan say ba... later he kill me... ><

The fire phoenix...

hahahahahha.... its time for Chinese New Year.... I saw this 'choy san' very cute.... >.<

Thats all for the picture... wanna see more? Go to my facebook to check it out... there got alot but some of the picture are blur....

Its 2am in the morning now... time sleep...

....Nitez....

Graduation Trip

2010-01-30T00:48:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Genting yesterday. Feel tiring today. Can be said, I had sleep for a whole day. What a tiring day. I had went to Genting Highlands for 2 days 1 Night stay at first world. First time ever, I went to Genting with friends and overnight there. I never taught that I had this opportunity to enjoy my life there with my course-mate. its really my first time ever.

Most of my 'first time' had given at Genting. "opps" don't think too much about the negative 'first time. First time ever, I had went to casino and gamble at there. Unfortunely, I had lost RM50 and I had gain a lesson from it. The lesson is 'We should not greedy for it". We must learn to satisfied ourselves. RM50 buy back a lesson, kinda wroth for it. Hm... I'm a quite abnormal person. Did you guys know? The whole night in Genting I cant sleep at all. Maybe due to the bed are not suitable for me to sleep. I cant sleep well. Some more 'some' of my room mate are making out some 'horrible' sound during the sleeping time. And there, lead me to 'bright eyes' the whole night. ><'

Anyway, such a nice and beautiful trip. The weather there are really cold and we just like walking in snow. Even we breath, there is a gas come out from out mouth. Hm... finally, I get to enjoying steamboat in a cold weather. Its really nice.

The wind blow up towards me and brings me a comfortable feelings. It just blow all my problems out and relax my mind. My fren had reserve a deluxe room at First World hotel and 6 of us had stay inside there and we had a steamboat dinner at RIA apartment. So, we had to walk to there.

On the way to RIA apartment, we was surrounded by mist and the wind blowing make me feels cold. But, it make my heart comfortable. The wind had clear off my mind. During the way to there, I had think of a lot of things. I had think of how stupid I am, how dummy I am. Finally, everything is clear after the Saturday (23 Jan) night. Since this are the fact, I should accept it. And this was my road, and I had taken it, I should beer for it. Cant blame and claim anymore.

ish... Forget about it. I must erase it from my mind.

Casino... First time ever enter the Casino. It look huge and grand. What a nice casino. I cant imagine it, Genting Casino is more about same with the movie Casino as I watched this TVB drama Dicey Business (賭場風雲). It really huge and grand. In casino, you could see various type of people. Even I can see the real face of my course-mate. LOL (it sound bad, but its true).

I believe that time will erase and proven everything. Although I really not thinking for it for the past two days, when I back home, I had think about it again. I cant control myself for not thinking of it but, I cant do it. I wish I can forget it but, its really hard.

I just wish, time could slowly erase up my memory. I refuse to forget it, but yet I had to forget it. I had to forget it i remind myself. Its not a dream anymore, its a fact. FORGET ABOUT IT !!!!

The End

2010-01-24T16:58:00.002+08:00

Finally it reach to the end,

End of my exam life,

End of my love life,

End of my study life,

End of my busy life...

22 January 2010 is my last day steps to my college,

I guess I'm will not step to this college again,

Unless I failed my exam (choy choy choy, dun 'luan luan' say)

Hm... last day see you guys.. miss u guys after that.

However, something happen on the following days...

I guess after that day, I'm not going to miss it again.

I will learn to let go... let go everything

Its not easy to let go, but its hard to maintain.

I knew it will never be like last time.

Life is full of challenges,

Either mentally or physically,

I cant manage to handle it actually,

Especially the mentally life matter...

I'm been killed by this matter...

I'm totally dawn...

Dawn for no reason...

I dont wish to see it anymore,

I will never walk back to the same place,

Never and ever ....

Final Paper to GO !!!!

2010-01-18T23:51:00.001+08:00

Well, just finish up my audit and assurance paper. A tough paper as it follow the ACCA format. Quite an interesting exam day. First time ever, I did my exam until I felt wanna vomit. I even feel headaches that time. Dizzy and fainted. Hm... A good beginning for me as I'm really started to concern trade on what I'm doing.

Enjoying single life is a fun things. Go wherever I wan. Play whenever I need. No need report to anyone. Hm... Cant waiting for my final paper to end. This friday, I'm officially FREE !!!

I wanna do many things after this friday. Make cookies, watch drama, sing k, shopping and many many more. And one more things, I hope I can go travel with our University Classmate since we haven't go for trip together. First time ever I meet such a nice friends. You guys brighten up my life. Be there for me whenever I need you guys. Teach me how to answer question, share knowledge together, fooling around together and etc.

First time ever I'm enjoying such life. I used to be study alone previously. But now, I found that study in group is better than study alone. You can gain as much knowledge as you can. =)

Anyway, I'm glad to have a friends like you guys. After this friday, we officially walk to our own life path. Some might be back hometown, some might be further study and some might be working in far far place. Hardly to see each other again.

Guys, remember, If I organize gathering, must attend ya !!!

Lastly, Gambatte Gambatte in this final paper.

Strike for the best for this paper ^^

Life isn't go as you wish too ~~~

2010-01-11T20:23:00.002+08:00

I cant imagine, the first blog that I wrote in year 2010 could be a failure of me today. I was having my final degree examination for the Current issue in Management Accounting paper today. And I found it, extremely hard, hard, hard than I taught. Its really hard. First time ever, I cant confirm my answer whether is a correct answer or incorrect answer. I cant imagine if I failed this paper. I really cant accept it...

First time ever, I use up 1 hour and 30 minute to do a question. Just the RI and EVA question itself I have used up half of the time. OMG !!! I cant stand after than. Cant think what should I write and what shouldn't write into the next question. The only things I can do is just put all the point that I know into the answer to answering the question. I really cant think anymore than that.

I should think positively I knew it. But the fact proven, I cant really controlling myself. Wrong is always wrong. Nothing can be changed after u pass up ur answer sheet to the University. My luck isn't as good as others... i just can depends to my luck...

4 papers to go... hopefully I can successfully pass these 4 paper. I dont care what (Hons) I get in this degree, I just wanna pass my exam... I just wan to pass... not to distinction ~~~

Welcome 2010, Goodbye 2009

2009-12-31T00:05:00.005+08:00

First of all, I have to apologies that I had cancelled my BBQ party on 31 Dec 2009. I know I make u guys disappointed. I'm so sorry for it... I'm really sorry for it ~~~

Meng Wai > I had make u disappointed... I never taught that ur BBQ mood is so 'high'

Wallances > sorry for delayed ur work. I never taught I will cancel it.

Sharon > I spoil ur BBQ mood since u are the 1st one who volunteer to go

Cancellation reason, our 'VIP' not free that day. I guess Meng Wai the only one know who is the "VIP". Cant blame the "VIP" actually. Its my fault. No ppl wan come. Haiz. All got their own program. People who attending my BBQ is just like a single status person. ><

By the way, I had change the BBQ party date to 23rd January 2010. Feel free? Come and join me that night. Overnight at my house also no problem. I will get ready with those pillow and blanket.

2009 is going to end soon. Hm... Its time to say goodbye to 2009. For me, in this whole year, there is really alot of things happen in my life. It seem like all the incident happened too much and too huge and too fast !!!!

Here the list that happened to me in year 2009. ( I wrote it down in case, in future I had lost my memory at lease I can refresh for it)

- start my degree in University of Greenwich -

- Attending Diploma Convocation -

- Brought a new laptop -

- Brought a set of make up stuff -

- Get to know alot of new friends (such as kaka, hong hong, ah lai, sharon, christine, wallances, and etc) -

- love problem occur lead to breaking up -

- health problem occur (my health very poor now compare to last year) -

- family problem occur -

- financial problem occur -

- first time watching mid night movie with friends -

- play badminton with uni friends -

- learn to drink wine and beer -

- learn to make myself more attractive -

- learn to shopping alone -

- toughen up my EQ -

- Going to lookup point with frens which leave a memorable moment -

I guess thats all for the things happen to me this year. Maybe I missed out something, but in my mind now, only have those incident above.

Quite a number of lesson could be learn this year. List down here...

Learn to communicate with others
Improving my english skills
Think before you talk
Believe there is a karma
Women are shopping queen? Agree !!!
Group Work are better than single work
Everything is possible, nothing is impossible

These lessons I more than enough for me to face all the problem. Even this year I had insomnia for a whole week. I guess some of my friends knows what actually makes me insomnia for that particular month... Forget the pass and faced the future...

Now, time to make 2010 resolution ~~~

Get a well result in my final degree exam
Learn to be a skill driver, not a rough driver
Find a better job after completing my degree
Get to enter big 4 audit firms
Manage to find a new partner (depends to my fate)
Lost weight at lease 10kg a year (maybe impossible)
Make rebounding to my hair
And most important... Peace World ~~~

These 8 resolution I wish to achieved in year 2010. Hopefully can target it. So guys, what is ur resolutions? Waiting you guys blog to update ^^

Finally, I'm here to wish all my blog reader,

Happy New Year

Stay healthy all the time

Be happy all the time

Appreciated everything around especially your loves once

Good Luck and All the best in year 2010

Welcome 2010 and leave 2009

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Suddenly Blogging Day

11.11.11

What I'm Demanding For????

Back From Melaka

All the Crow is Black?

You Bright Up My Mood Today

Continue or Stop???

Another Gathering !!

Updates !!!

New Chair @ Office

Happening In February

Good Luck !!!

Valentine Day

CNY 2011 Final Shopping

What Should I Do?

New Year EVe !!!!

Its Christmas Eve Again

Registered

I Cant Believe it !!!

First Time Ever !!!

Unexpected Outing

Great Outing With Them

Sudden Shopping Day !!!

Halloween Night

Did I feel Lonely?

Xenri, The Japanese Cuisine

HATE IT !!!

Dislike my Working Environment

Learning Day: 101010

What A Conscious !!!

Shocking Morning !!!

PAIN !!!

Again and Again

Gathering With Colleges @ Ai Nie House

Other Picture From the Trip

Tea Time @ Sri Petaling

Star Cruise Virgo + Singapore (3 days 2 Night)

Leaving Msia For 3 Days

Regret

Sick and Recover

MR Turtle Been Hurt by Me

Mr Secret

Hand Pain

Where The Wind Blow Over

Bored day @ Office

I had nothing to Say Anymore

Addicted

Miscellaneous Again

A Night With Them Again

I'm Finally Get the Meaning Behind the actions !!!

Too Sudden

Sitting at home

What happening actually?

泳儿 - 原来爱情那么难

Sleepless @ Night

OMG !!!

Should I Answer Or Ignore?

I Just Can Say, BYE !!!

Wish is only a Dreams

End up with GOING

Unexpected Feelings

Miscellaneous

Feels been cheated

Pause Button in Life

Happy Birthday Priscilla !!!!

Truth are always right ~~~

Sickness... Away From ME !!!!!

Horrible Dreams

Love OR Crush?

Finally Out !!!

Walking around the office ~~~

Nothing can be argue anymore

Its fine ~~~ I dont care about it ~~~

Tuesday Blue ~~~~

4 day in a row

I cant confirm whether its true or fake

What a BAD DAY !!!

Its time to close it

我以為 - 品冠

Its fine ~ I dont care about it ~